Lyrics
I don't know why it seems
I am uncertain about the reasons
I'm the one that no one needs
Feeling unneeded or overlooked
Behind a barricade
Experiencing emotional barriers
I never know what to say
Struggling with expressing myself
Though I try to play my part
Attempting to fulfill my role
I do not understand the heart
Unable to comprehend emotions
Trying to relate
Making an effort to connect
I end up pushing you away
Inadvertently pushing people away
And I
Reflecting on the situation
Just wanna be your first choice
Desiring to be the preferred choice
I
Expressing a wish to overcome fear
Don't wanna be afraid
Addressing a potential choice
You
Recognizing someone special
Would've been my first choice
Expressing regret or missed opportunity
Your Apathy
Feeling the impact of indifference
Leaves me unmade
Sensation of being incomplete
And I try to push it down
Attempting to hide inner doubts
So no one knows about my doubts
Struggling with internal conflicts
Full of uncertainty
Overwhelmed by uncertainty
It consumes me as I sleep
Being consumed by thoughts during sleep
I can never find escape
Feeling trapped and unable to escape
From this prison I have made
Self-imposed emotional confinement
Needing validation
Seeking external validation
I slip in isolation
Isolating oneself due to the need for validation
And I
Reflecting on personal desires
Just wanna be your first choice
Reiterating the desire to be the preferred choice
I
Reaffirming the wish to overcome fear
Don't wanna be afraid
Addressing a potential choice again
You
Expressing regret or missed opportunity again
Would've been my first choice
Repeating the acknowledgment of someone special
Your Apathy
Reiterating the impact of indifference
Leaves me unmade
Continuing to feel incomplete
But I will undo
Committing to undoing past damage
The damage I have made
Expressing determination to recover
I'll be ok, I'll mend my pain
Remaining optimistic about healing
And I will banish
Declaring intent to overcome internal struggles
The demons in my brain
Facing and overcoming personal demons
They scream my name
Describing the intense nature of internal conflicts
Like it's a game
Highlighting the challenging nature of the situation
And I
Reiterating the desire to be the preferred choice
Just wanna be your first choice
Reaffirming the wish to overcome fear
I
Addressing a potential choice once more
Don't wanna be afraid
Expressing a continued desire to overcome fear
You
Repeating the acknowledgment of someone special
Would've been my first choice
Expressing regret or missed opportunity again
Your Apathy
Reiterating the impact of indifference
Leaves me unmade
Continuing to feel incomplete
Unmade
Emphasizing the feeling of being unfinished or incomplete
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