Birthday
Celebrating Shadows: A Poetic Journey of Loneliness and Transformation
Lyrics
I I I I
The repetition of "I" suggests a strong personal focus or self-reflection.
I just wanna get high alone in my bedroom
Expresses a desire to experience a heightened state, possibly through substance use, in the privacy of one's bedroom.
Just wait it out tonight
Waiting for something to pass or resolve during the night.
I just wanna get high alone keep my eyes
Reiterates the wish to get high alone while keeping attention on the bathroom light.
On the bathroom light
Suggests a focus on a specific point, the bathroom light, during the desire to get high.
Let it take me home
Desire for the substance to guide the individual home, possibly symbolizing a sense of comfort or escape.
Cause I'm so sick of rolling my genetic dice
Expresses frustration or weariness with the randomness of genetic outcomes.
I'm so sick of dwelling on my so-called "sacrifice"
Expresses dissatisfaction with dwelling on perceived sacrifices.
Cause I'm the only one who
Implies a sense of loneliness or uniqueness in the following lines.
Still celebrates your birthday
Asserts the speaker as the only one still celebrating someone's birthday.
Except maybe your momma but I wouldn't know
Suggests uncertainty about the mother's awareness of the celebration.
Because she blocked me on facebook
Describes being blocked on Facebook by the mother, indicating a strained relationship.
And then she left the country
Reveals that the mother left the country, adding complexity to the speaker's relationship with the family.
Tracked down your aunt and she told me so
Indicates the speaker's effort to find information about the celebration through the aunt.
I I I I
Repetition of "I," maintaining a personal focus.
And if I took it all back would it really taste so sweet?
Raises questions about the consequences of undoing past actions and whether it would bring satisfaction.
And if I gave it all up what colors might I beed?
Contemplates the potential outcomes of giving up everything, expressed through the metaphor of colors.
Cause I'm the only one who
Repetition of the claim of being the only one celebrating the birthday.
Still celebrates your birthday
Reiterates uncertainty about the mother's awareness of the celebration.
Except maybe your momma but I wouldn't know
Indicates the speaker's decision to delete their Facebook account, possibly to disconnect from the mother.
Cause I deleted my facebook
Describes a significant change in identity by changing the last name.
And then I changed my last name
Reveals a new interest or commitment to learning taekwondo as part of the speaker's transformed life.
And now I'm learning taekwondo
Empty line, no explicit content.
And I'm so sick of rolling my genetic dice
Expresses discontent with dwelling on a solitary and unfulfilling life.
I'm so sick of dwelling on my lonely little life
Reiteration of the desire to get high alone in the bedroom, suggesting a persistent need for escape.
I just wanna get high alone in my bedroom
Repeats the desire for solitude and getting high in the bedroom.
Just wait it out tonight
Expresses a desire to wait out something during the night.
I just wanna get high keep my eyes
Reiterates the desire to get high while keeping attention on the bathroom light.
On the bathroom light
Repeats the idea of letting the substance guide the speaker home for comfort.
Let it take me home
Empty line, no explicit content.
I I I I
Repetition of "I," possibly emphasizing the personal nature of the sentiments expressed throughout the lyrics.
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