How I figured
Embracing Shadows: A Soul's Struggle with Loneliness and Redemption
Lyrics
How I figured
Expressing contemplation about a discovery or realization
I don't know why I feel so old
Feeling emotionally aged or worn out
Responsibility has taken its toll
Acknowledging the toll taken by responsibilities
And I don't know why I feel so low
Experiencing emotional emptiness or a lack of vitality
My greatest enemy is my lonely soul
Identifying one's own loneliness as the primary adversary
I try to be hard but I aint got no fight
Attempting to appear tough but lacking the will to fight
Just spend my time ignoring the light
Spending time avoiding positive influences or guidance
And if I don't die and I live thru this night
Contemplating survival through the night and a commitment to change
I swear that I will change and do things right
Pledging to change behavior and take corrective actions
I swear that I'll change and do things right
Reaffirming the intention to change and do things correctly
I've burned all of my bridges along the way
Having severed connections or relationships during life's journey
All of my friends have gone away
Noticing the absence of friends
If you see me about alone all day
Being alone throughout the day as expected or predicted
It's just how I figured my time would stay
Accepting that solitude is anticipated in how time is spent
I don't know why that I am so numb
Feeling emotionally desensitized or unable to feel
Maybe I feel like I am just dumb
Questioning one's intelligence or feeling inadequate
Drown all my boredom in vodka and rum
Using alcohol to cope with boredom or emotional distress
Try to make sense of the tunes that I hum
Trying to find meaning in the melodies hummed
Spend all my time on dreams with no hope
Investing time in dreams or aspirations without optimism
Counting the hours until I learn to cope
Counting down moments until acquiring coping mechanisms
Clutching my hands to the end of the rope
Metaphorically grasping for a way out or a solution
Holding my breath until the gates ope'
Waiting for an opportunity or moment of change
I've burned all of my bridges along the way
Reiterating the theme of severed connections in the past
All of my friends have gone away
Emphasizing the absence or departure of companions
If you see me about alone all day
Being consistently alone as a preconceived outcome
It's just how I figured my time would stay
Acknowledging the predicted nature of spending time in solitude
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