I'm a Nightmare
Embracing the Nightmare Within: Lucy Mayhem's Soul-searching Journey
Lyrics
I tried to figure shit out
Attempting to understand things
Figure out the meaning of myself
Trying to comprehend my own purpose or significance
I tried to be who I want
Striving to embody the person I aspire to be
Someone I want to meet after life
Desiring to meet an ideal version of myself after death
But I let myself down
Feeling disappointed in myself
I let myself drown
Sinking into personal failure or negativity
I let family down
Disappointing my family
Let me heart turn brown
Causing emotional pain or distress to myself
Tried to be who I wanted
Struggling to be the person I envisioned
But I always fail
Consistently failing in those efforts
Tried to be who I dreamt of
Attempting to embody my dreams but feeling like a negative force
But I'm a nightmare
Perceiving oneself as a source of fear or disturbance
I tried to make up mistakes
Trying to correct past errors
But keep on making the same mistakes
Continuously repeating the same mistakes
I tried to test blind faith
Attempting to challenge blind trust or belief
But I've never felt more faithless
Feeling devoid of faith despite attempts
Asking am I trying
Questioning one's own efforts
But I'm trying my best
Doing the best possible despite doubts
Calling myself a liar
Self-identifying as untruthful or deceptive
My best's not good enough
Feeling inadequate despite giving maximum effort
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