Vodka Smile
Vodka Smile: Navigating the River of Change
Lyrics
Hold on,
Expression of urging or encouragement to persist.
Drowning in the river of the lost,
Feeling overwhelmed and lost in life's challenges.
l made it here at all costs and l paid my dues,
Emphasizing determination to reach a goal, despite sacrifices.
Yes l paid my dues yes l paid my dues,
Repetition underscores the recognition and acceptance of paying dues.
Another scene set played it best,
Allusion to life as a performance, playing one's role convincingly.
l’m drenched in blood sick and sweat,
Describing a state of intense effort and struggle.
My eyes set fever is creeping in but yet l feel so alive,
Ambivalence in feeling alive despite physical challenges.
l’m raging too wasted, figuring out what the fuck I’m saying,
Confusion and intoxication leading to self-discovery.
Its crazy, lm changing in to the person l always hated,
Acknowledging a negative transformation in personality.
Its crazy lm changing going out of my mind l made it,
Recognition of a significant, possibly challenging, personal achievement.
Its crazy lm changing what the fuck am l saying,
Continued expression of confusion and self-discovery.
Hold on,
Repetition of the opening line, reinforcing the call to persevere.
Drowning in the river of the lost,
Reiteration of feeling lost, emphasizing the struggle.
l made it here at all costs and l paid my dues,
Restating determination and the cost paid for success.
Yes l paid my dues yes l paid my dues,
Repetition emphasizing the acknowledgment of paying dues.
Sold my last chance down the river,
Sacrificing a final opportunity, possibly for personal gain.
l live lost in the rhythm and waste,
Living aimlessly, absorbed in a chaotic lifestyle.
Driving me insane cause l don’t wanna be me,
Expressing discontent with one's own identity.
Cause l don’t wanna be me,
Reiteration of rejecting one's own identity.
Spinning out of the atmosphere,
Feeling detached, possibly from reality or self.
Drinks drugs kicking in my eyes appear,
Mention of substances altering perception and awareness.
Not quite listening l’m not right here,
Not fully present mentally, disconnected from surroundings.
l’m on a wave length listening to my own fears,
Listening to internal fears, possibly avoiding external influences.
Before l cave and blackout my days,
Before succumbing to blackout, contemplating the passage of time.
Nights and weeks whats left to say,
Reflection on the passing of time, with uncertainty remaining.
In denial all the while living with a vodka smile
Living in denial, maintaining a facade with a smile influenced by alcohol.
Sold my last chance down the river,
Repetition of sacrificing chances for personal gain.
l live lost in the rhythm and waste,
Reiteration of living lost in a chaotic lifestyle.
Driving me insane cause l don’t wanna be me,
Continued discontent with one's own identity.
Cause l don’t wanna be me,
Reiteration of rejecting one's own identity.
Hold on,
Final call to hold on, suggesting persistence in the face of challenges.
Drowning in the river of the lost,
Reiteration of feeling lost, emphasizing the struggle.
l made it here at all costs and l paid my dues,
Restating determination and the cost paid for success.
Yes l paid my dues yes l paid my dues,
Repetition emphasizing the acknowledgment of paying dues.
Cause l don’t wanna be me,
Final rejection of one's own identity.
l don’t wanna be me
Reiteration of rejecting one's own identity as a closing statement.
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