Temporary Insanity
Eternal Struggle: Blanco Brown's Tale of Regret and Redemption
Lyrics
I never meant to break your broken heart
I unintentionally caused the pain of breaking your already broken heart.
These lonely nights keep me staying awake
Lonely nights make it difficult for me to sleep, contemplating my actions.
Hoping that my phone would ring
Hoping for a call on my phone, seeking reconciliation.
Turn the page
Mentally moving on or trying to start a new chapter.
All my life I've been chasing charts
Throughout my life, I've been pursuing achievements and success.
Never felt like I could just walk away
Feeling unable to easily leave a situation, committed to staying.
I chose to stay, yeah
Despite challenges, I chose to remain in the relationship.
So what I gave up chasing mountains?
Is it worth giving up the pursuit of lofty goals?
I never ever could turn back the page
Unable to reverse time or undo past mistakes.
Or get back that day
Regret for a day that cannot be recovered.
I can't pretend to play superhero or play victim
Acknowledging inability to play a heroic or victim role.
'Cause I hurt myself when I did me wrong
Hurting myself through my own wrong actions.
How does that go?
Reflecting on the consequences of one's actions.
I think I'm losing it, I feel so cold
Feeling like I'm losing control, experiencing emotional numbness.
Sitting in this dark room alone
Being alone in a dark room, contemplating life.
With my ceiling fan spinning on low
Visualizing a ceiling fan turning slowly, perhaps symbolizing the passing of time.
I know I'm losing it, I'm turning cold
Sensing a growing emotional distance, turning cold.
Sitting in this dark room alone
Continuing to sit alone in a dark room, feeling spiritually lost.
'Cause my spirit's so down, I feel lost
Expressing a deep sense of despair and confusion.
I never thought to gift you everything
Unexpectedly losing everything despite giving generously.
And in exchange you broke me and took it away
Experiencing betrayal and having possessions taken away.
Can you feel my pain?
Asking if the pain of the speaker is palpable or understood.
Ever since I was a little boy (boy)
Reflecting on a lifetime of questioning purpose, fearing being forgotten.
Always questioned my purpose, don't let me slip away
Choosing to engage in life, not wanting to be overlooked.
I chose to play (I chose to play)
Opting to participate actively in life's challenges.
So what I gave up chasing fountains?
Considering abandoning the pursuit of youthful exuberance or idealism.
I never ever could turn back the page
Unable to reverse time or undo past mistakes (repeated theme).
Or get back that day
Regret for a day that cannot be recovered (repeated theme).
I can't pretend to play superhero or play victim
Acknowledging inability to play a heroic or victim role (repeated theme).
'Cause I hurt myself when I did you wrong
Hurting oneself through one's own wrong actions (repeated theme).
Tell me, how does that go?
Reflecting on the consequences of one's actions (repeated theme).
I think I'm losing it, I feel so cold
Feeling like I'm losing control, experiencing emotional numbness (repeated theme).
Sitting in this dark room alone
Being alone in a dark room, contemplating life (repeated theme).
With my ceiling fan spinning on low
Visualizing a ceiling fan turning slowly, perhaps symbolizing the passing of time (repeated theme).
I know I'm losing it, I'm turning cold
Sensing a growing emotional distance, turning cold (repeated theme).
Sitting in this dark room alone
Continuing to sit alone in a dark room, feeling spiritually lost (repeated theme).
'Cause my spirit's so down, I feel lost
Expressing a deep sense of despair and confusion (repeated theme).
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