Lyrics
Hey its me again sorry for blowing up your phone but please pick up
Apology for persistent calls, requesting an answer.
Still I love you if I die tonight
Expressing love despite the possibility of imminent death.
Your the rainbow when the sun don't shine
You bring joy in difficult times.
Pink skies beautiful sunsets our sun set
Describing beautiful scenes and acknowledging the end.
What do you crave our love has dug its grave
Questioning desires when love seems doomed.
And it's hard burning our book when I'm stuck on every page
Struggling to move on from a past relationship.
Let my demons out the cage, burn the hope of us in flames
Releasing inner demons, letting go of hope.
Breaking free but I'm locked up in these chains and it's driving me insane
Feeling trapped in conflicting emotions.
Lord can you hear my cry
Seeking divine intervention and expressing desperation.
Lord I'd rather die than fly grab the sword and cut with knives
Prefer death over enduring pain, using dramatic imagery.
Twister in my life its my mistakes I contemplate
Reflecting on personal mistakes and uncertainties.
Will I make it
Questioning the possibility of survival.
Will somebody else take me
Contemplating the role of others in one's life.
Or will you take me
Pleading for a significant other's presence.
I'm losing grip throwing fists at the wall suffering from your withdrawal
Struggling with emotional turmoil and withdrawal.
Girl you got me tripping, paranoid and seeing visions
Experiencing paranoia and hallucinations.
Envision tippy toeing through the kitchen, bitching, like something always missing
Feeling like something essential is always missing.
Like I'm the doctor to your prescriptions
Assuming a caretaker role but realizing the need for self-love.
Cuz girl I love you need to love myself
Recognizing the importance of self-love in a relationship.
Now days I wake up with somebody else
Moving on, waking up with someone else.
Cuz girl I love you need to heal myself
Emphasizing the need for personal healing.
Still I wish it was your skin or heart I felt
Longing for the touch of a loved one.
I'm the one that needs the Meds
Acknowledging personal struggles and need for medication.
Still got monsters in my head
Haunted by inner demons and unresolved issues.
You're my monster in the bed
Referencing intimacy with a loved one.
Good bad some theft quick with the knife in the back
Reflecting on a complex relationship with ups and downs.
Always on attack when I try to just protect
Feeling attacked when trying to protect.
Always saying I project deflect but loyalty ain't something that you ever had
Highlighting a lack of loyalty in the relationship.
Now I'm sitting in the booth making songs about my past
Turning personal experiences into songwriting.
Swear to G-d it won't last
Doubting the longevity of the creative process.
One more song and I'll throw it in the bag
Considering quitting the music industry after one more song.
Let me get this off my chest
Expressing a need to share personal burdens.
Late nights with complexities and cigarettes
Recalling late nights filled with complications.
I just keep replaying the words that you said to me
Replaying impactful words spoken in the relationship.
Knew it would get to me
Anticipating the emotional impact of past words.
Like a dark comedy your just depressing me
Comparing the relationship to a dark comedy.
Missing the image of smiles and knowing our destiny
Mourning the loss of joyful moments and a shared future.
Fake it like I can deal with the pain when it gets to me
Pretending to cope with pain while struggling internally.
Drinking seems to be my only remedy
Turning to drinking as a coping mechanism.
Haven't seen my loved one in some months I'm feeling misdirected
Feeling lost and disconnected from loved ones.
Feeling disconnected
Expressing a sense of disconnection and longing.
I wanna hear your voice and
Desiring to hear the voice of a loved one.
Leave a message
Leaving a message as a form of communication.
Cuz girl I love you need to love myself
Reiterating the need for self-love in a relationship.
Now days I wake up with somebody else
Reflecting on waking up with someone new.
Cuz girl I love you need to heal myself
Emphasizing the importance of personal healing.
Still I wish it was your skin or heart I felt
Expressing a longing for the touch of a loved one.
Look I've been calling you every single day so go fuck yourself
Frustration and anger at unanswered calls.
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