Lyrics
I've been awake for a while
I have been awake for a while.
Studying the ceiling tiles
I've been contemplating my surroundings, particularly the ceiling tiles.
Because I know they know about me
I am aware that others are aware of me.
Cold feet in the hall
I feel hesitant or uncertain, possibly anxious.
And words scribbled on the wall
There are words written on the wall, but they are unclear or indecipherable.
But they lack the legibility
These words lack clarity and don't hold any significant meaning for me.
To mean a goddamn thing to me
These unclear words don't have any impact or importance in my life.
It's not much but it's all I have
Although it may not be much, what I have is important to me.
Dancing to the rhythm of a world gone mad
I'm adapting to the chaotic rhythm of the world.
'Cause you said I was always no good
You claimed that I am inherently not good.
You said I was always no good
Reiteration of being labeled as always "no good."
I've been spinning for a while
I've been in a state of confusion or uncertainty for a while.
A cerebral turnstile
A metaphorical turnstile of thoughts has convinced me that I'm easily forgettable.
That's convinced me I'm forgettable
The mental turmoil makes me believe that I'm not memorable.
Because the way you left the room
Your departure left no room for assumptions.
Left no room to assume
There was no indication of your return.
That you were ever coming back again
I cannot assume you'll come back.
Or that you'd ever want to
I doubt you have the desire to return.
It's not much but it's all I have
My possessions may not be significant, but they are meaningful to me.
Dancing to the rhythm of a world gone mad
I'm adapting to the chaotic rhythm of the world, despite being told I'm no good.
'Cause you said I was always no good
Reiteration of being labeled as always "no good."
You said I was always no good
Once again, the assertion that I'm always no good is emphasized.
Is this really how it ends?
Expressing uncertainty about the current situation and if it's the end of a relationship.
We just never speak again?
Questioning if communication will cease entirely.
Become voices in the wind
Suggesting a fading connection, becoming like voices in the wind.
Can we keep this to ourselves?
Hoping to keep the situation private.
Because you know I'd let you in
If you seek reconciliation, I would welcome you back.
If you found my door again
Expressing openness to reconciliation if you find your way back to me.
But I know I don't deserve
Acknowledging a perceived lack of worthiness.
To be much more than a dead man.
Accepting that I may not deserve more than a state of emotional numbness.
For so long you were all I had
You were a significant presence in my life for a long time.
The only thing good in a world gone bad
You were the only positive thing in a troubled world.
So if it makes you feel better to believe I hurt you on purpose
If it brings you comfort to believe I intentionally caused you pain, I'm willing to pretend I deserve the consequences.
Then I have no issue pretending I deserve this
Willingness to accept blame, even if it's fabricated, to provide comfort to the other person.
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