Spinning On A Ceiling Fan
Embracing Inadequacies: A Love Unraveled
Lyrics
You can talk to me for hours please waste all your time with me
You can talk to me extensively; please spend your time with me.
And I love the way you kiss me in the morning like it's TV
I appreciate the morning kisses, reminiscent of scenes in TV shows.
And I hate the way you urge me to get up and get out 'cause I'll be late
Dislike the insistence to get up and leave due to being consistently late.
I'm always late
Expressing a habitual lateness.
Tell me anything you want you know I would do anything for you
Willing to do anything for the person, emphasizing devotion.
Like hold your hand at midnight even though I'm just as scared as you
Despite personal fears, willing to hold hands at midnight.
And I will stay up petrified with my reflection in your eyes staring me down
Describing a vulnerable moment, feeling scared with intense eye contact.
Please don't look now
A plea not to be observed closely.
And I can't shake the feeling that I'll never be enough for you
Feeling inadequate, doubting ability to meet the other person's expectations.
And every anxious thought that I fought last night was all I knew
Reflecting on anxious thoughts from the previous night.
I'm left staring at the ceiling hoping for this feeling to go away
Longing for the negative feelings to dissipate while staring at the ceiling.
Please go away
A direct plea for the unwanted feelings to go away.
On the floor talk to the wall pray to god that I don't wake up
Expressing despair, talking to inanimate objects, and praying for peace.
But he hasn't answered once since the summer where I made up
Not receiving answers to prayers, referring to a past experience in the summer.
All those stories about Jesus and told myself that doubt was not for me
Mentioning skepticism about religious stories and avoiding doubt.
It's not for me
Reiterating a personal stance on doubt.
'Cause I can't shake the feeling that I'll never be enough for you
Repeating feelings of inadequacy in the relationship.
And every anxious thought that I fought last night was all I knew
Recalling anxious thoughts from the previous night.
I'm left staring at the ceiling hoping for this feeling to go away
Continuing to hope for the unwanted feelings to disappear while staring at the ceiling.
Please go away
Reiterating the plea for the feelings to go away.
As we sit outside your house in the driveway of your parents
Describing a moment sitting outside the partner's house, reflecting on past choices.
'Cause you ignored the signs and I did well to hide the damage
Acknowledging mistakes and the concealment of damage in the relationship.
And the scars they just got darker and I knew you were never coming back
Recognizing the deepening scars and the realization of a permanent departure.
Not coming back
Confirming the irreversible nature of the partner not returning.
And I could not shake the feeling that I'd never be enough for you
Reiterating feelings of inadequacy in the relationship.
And every anxious thought helped tie the knot and watched us kick the stool
Linking anxious thoughts to the deterioration of the relationship.
I'm left staring at the ceiling knowing that these feelings won't go away
Acceptance that the lingering feelings won't easily fade away.
Won't go away, won't go away
Emphasizing the persistence of the unresolved emotions.
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