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Nineteen: A Soul's Struggle in a World Unraveling
Lyrics
My eyes closed, I'm barely awake
Expressing a state of vulnerability or tiredness, possibly both physically and emotionally.
Be honest, I'm too used to pain
Acknowledging a familiarity with pain, suggesting a history of enduring difficult experiences.
So cold out, the sun's gone away
Describing a cold and sunless atmosphere, reflecting a sense of emptiness or emotional darkness.
I can't tell if I've just gone insane
Expressing uncertainty about one's mental state, questioning sanity or stability.
I cut my hair off, threw out my makeup
Symbolizing a desire for change or a fresh start by cutting hair and discarding makeup.
When I feel better, something just goes wrong
Highlighting a recurring pattern of setbacks or challenges even when feeling better.
And nobody gets me, I live in a bad dream
Feeling misunderstood by others, possibly isolated or detached from those around.
The world's fucking ending and I'm only nineteen
Expressing a sense of hopelessness or despair, possibly influenced by the state of the world.
Tomorrow's just ten hours away
Emphasizing the anticipation of a new day but feeling stuck in past difficulties.
But I'm still, stuck in yesterday
Conveying a sense of being trapped in or haunted by past events or emotions.
My mom took just one look at my face
Referring to the mother's concern about the singer's well-being, indicating a troubled state.
Am I okay? Oh
Questioning one's own condition and well-being, possibly in response to the mother's concern.
I cut my hair off, threw out my makeup
Reiteration of the symbolic act of change through cutting hair and discarding makeup.
When I feel better, something just goes wrong
Reaffirming the recurring theme of setbacks or challenges despite efforts to feel better.
And nobody gets me, I live in a bad dream
Reiterating a sense of isolation or being misunderstood in a dream-like, nightmarish reality.
The world's fucking ending and I'm only nineteen
Repeating the theme of despair, tying it to the age of nineteen and the perceived end of the world.
I cut my hair off, threw out my makeup
Repetition of the symbolic act of change, suggesting a persistent struggle for improvement.
When I feel better, nobody shows up
Expressing a lack of support or understanding from others when feeling better.
It's too hard to fix me, I'm late to the party
Describing difficulty in fixing or addressing personal issues, feeling left out or delayed in personal development.
I feel so empty and I'm only nineteen
Reiterating a sense of emptiness, possibly tied to a specific age-related experience at nineteen.
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