This Is Calm
Finding Strength in Stillness: Decoding the Essence of 'This Is Calm' by Christopher Dallman
Lyrics
So, this is calm
Introduction to a state of calmness or tranquility.
Should I feel optimistic?
Questioning whether optimism is appropriate in this calm state.
Should I greet the sun with a smile?
Questioning if a positive response is expected when facing the day.
Because as it is I roll to my side
Describing the physical action of rolling to the side in bed.
And I lay there
Extended description of lying in bed for an extended period.
For a good long while
-So this is calm
Reiteration of the calm state and questioning if feeling okay is appropriate.
Should I feel ok?
Questioning the impact of feeling okay on creative inspiration.
And should this ‘ok’ set my inspiration reeling?
-Should I feel like I am pulled in all directions
Expressing a lack of emotional connection and feeling directionless.
I feel no pull
-I feel nothing
-I ride the train from Queens to Morningside
Describing a train journey, questioning if it's a linear progression or a decline.
I keep my eyes straight ahead, keep my face dignified
-But is this linear or a downward slide?
-This is calm
Reaffirmation of the calm state.
When I asked you to leave
Describing a past event where a request to leave led to a dramatic emotional display.
You threw your wine at the wall
-And it bled down, red on white
-My stomach did not turn
-I could not match your tears
-I just stood there thinking, ‘what a beautiful sight!’
-I ride the train from Queens to Morningside
Repetition of the train journey, questioning its nature again.
I keep my eyes straight ahead, keep my face dignified
-But is this linear or a downward slide?
-This is calm
Reiteration of the calm state.
I guess I should feel like
Expressing a struggle with personal limitations and the desire for change.
I can do anything
-But, I can’t do anything at all
-I can’t do anything
-but fall down on my knees
-at the whims of my dreams
-I can’t do this to myself anymore
-Stay so strong and still
Declaration of the singer's voice and identity.
This is my voice!
Repetition and contemplation on the inability to feel certain emotions.
I wonder why I can’t feel this
-I wonder why I can’t feel this
-I wonder why I can’t feel this
Continuation of questioning the inability to feel.
Questions in my throat
Reference to unasked questions or uncertainties.
I don’t know how
Expressing a lack of knowledge about how to proceed in life.
I don’t know how to live
Reiteration of uncertainty about living.
But I will learn
Expressing determination to learn and experience various aspects of life.
To live
-To stand
-To breathe
-To taste
-To love
-I will move on
Declaration of the intention to move forward despite challenges.
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