Empty Hands
Embracing Shadows: A Struggle Against Inner Demons
Lyrics
I am all alone; your words have never brought me peace
I feel isolated, and your words don't bring me comfort or tranquility.
They rain down upon my head and destroy everything
Your words are overwhelming and destructive, impacting everything negatively.
With weary eyes I stare at the sea
I gaze at the sea with tired eyes, perhaps reflecting on my struggles.
In the distance I hear you call out for me
You're distant, but I can still hear your call, possibly a plea for connection.
I am so tired of running away
I'm weary of running away and facing the same buried issues repeatedly.
Only to come back right where I had buried this with my hands
I return to the unresolved matters, symbolized by what I buried with my hands.
Still you tell me that I can be trusted with a burden that I never wanted
You insist I can handle an unwanted burden, despite my resistance.
No matter how I try to push you away I still hear you call out to me
Even when I try to distance myself, your call remains inescapable.
I'm not the better man I'm called to be
I admit I'm not the morally superior person I'm supposed to be.
Why can't I escape? You pull me under the waves.
I can't escape; you drag me into difficult situations symbolized by the waves.
I'm the one who made this sea
I acknowledge responsibility for creating the challenges in my life.
It's taken everything from me
The difficulties have taken a toll on me, causing significant loss.
Still you try to sing me to sleep.
You attempt to comfort me, although I resist by staying awake.
But I buried this with my hands.
I've buried issues, but they resurface, making it challenging to move on.
No matter what I try I keep coming back.
Despite my efforts, I keep returning to unresolved matters.
There were days that I asked for this to change, but there was a fear inside of me
I desired change, but fear prevented it, questioning my identity and capacity for wrongdoing.
A fear that made me question who I am and why I'm capable of such horrible things
Fear grows from promises, leading to self-consumption.
And every single promise that you whispered in my ear,
Your promises intensify my fear rather than providing reassurance.
That fear just kept growing until it consumed me.
Fear grows to the point of overwhelming me completely.
But I let that fear go, and I can see who you are. Your words gave me nothing
I release the fear and gain clarity about your true nature, finding your words empty.
I've been running away for too long; I'm not running anymore
I've avoided confronting issues for too long; now, I refuse to run away.
I will stand my ground and scream out loud
I choose to stand my ground and vocalize my struggles.
My heart won't be yours.
My heart won't succumb to your influence or control.
So I buried this with my hands.
Despite burying the issues, they won't be forgotten or resolved.
And no matter what you try I won't be coming back.
No matter your attempts, I won't return to the unresolved matters.
I'm not the better man I'm called to be
I admit I'm not the morally superior person I'm supposed to be (repeated).
Why can't I escape? You pull me under the waves.
I can't escape; you drag me into difficult situations symbolized by the waves (repeated).
I'm the one who made this sea
I acknowledge responsibility for creating the challenges in my life (repeated).
It's taken everything from me
The difficulties have taken a toll on me, causing significant loss (repeated).
And no matter what you try you won't sing me to sleep.
Your attempts to comfort me won't succeed in lulling me to sleep.
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