My Changing of Mind
Echoes of Transformation: Cloudpocket's Journey Through Shattered DreamsLyrics
Ever since I played with fire
Reflecting on past risky behavior involving fire.
On a shady street in Germany
Specific memory in Germany, possibly negative or influential.
Ever since it made it fucking hard to really feel
Fire incident made it emotionally challenging to connect deeply.
I lost my voice in a bedroom
Lost personal expression or authenticity in a private space.
Lost the track of time at 03
Time lost significance at 03, suggesting a turbulent period.
But it was recently I lost my heart and it won't heal
Recent heartbreak that remains unhealed.
And I've been gone for weeks now
Extended absence, possibly from relationships or responsibilities.
And I can never get no sleep
Insomnia or restlessness preventing adequate sleep.
I am kinda living life without dipping my feet
Avoiding full engagement with life, metaphorically not dipping feet.
I lost my soul in autumn
Soul lost during autumn, symbolic of a difficult season.
And my head's gone with the summer heat
Mental state affected by summer heat, possibly intense emotions.
And my bones are getting frail and broken by defeat
Physical and emotional deterioration due to continuous defeat.
And I'm ashamed of what I used to brag about
Regret and embarrassment about past boasting or arrogance.
I feel it now
Recognition of current emotional distress.
I can only blame my changing of mind
Attributing current struggles to a change in mindset.
I was visiting the mausoleum
Visiting a symbolic place of death or loss.
Prayed at the altar of what I used to be
Praying to the past version of oneself.
Laid a flower on my coffin, can't you see?
Symbolic act of mourning for the old self.
That I'm a ghost now
Feeling like a ghost, disconnected from the past.
A shadow of my christmas past
Becoming a mere shadow of joyful past memories.
My body is a host now, I'm stuck within this cast
Body as a vessel for negative experiences, stuck in a role.
And I'm ashamed of what I used to brag about
Repeat of regret for past boasting or arrogance.
I feel it now
Emotionally acknowledging regret in the present.
I can only blame my changing of mind
Attributing current struggles to a change in mindset (repeated).
I was
Introduction to a specific moment or reflection.
Staring at
Engaging in introspection while staring at the bathroom ceiling.
The bathroom ceiling
Visualization of unsettling imagery (spiders) indicating discomfort.
A million spiders crawling everywhere
Sensory overload, possibly reflecting internal struggles.
I am yet to find
Recognition of a lack of deeper meaning in the current situation.
No deeper meaning let's be fair
Being honest about the absence of profound significance.
I brought this on myself, I
Acceptance of personal responsibility for the current state.
Won't blame the changing of time
Refusal to blame external factors like time for personal changes.
I gotta change track
Decision to redirect life's trajectory and mindset.
Gotta change back
Expressing the need to revert to a previous state of being.
I gotta care
Acknowledging the necessity of caring and making positive changes.
And I'm ashamed of what I used to brag about
Reiteration of regret for past boasting or arrogance.
I feel it now
Current emotional awareness and acknowledgment of mistakes.
I can only blame my changing of mind
Attributing current struggles to a change in mindset (repeated).
And the changing of times
Emphasizing the influence of both personal change and external times.
My changing of mind
Restating the central theme of personal mindset evolution.
And the changing of times
Highlighting the continuous impact of changing times on personal growth.
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