Lyrics
And I start to shake, cause I never know what I'm supposed to say
Feeling uncertain and anxious, unable to find the right words to say.
Cause I'm reading from a script I can't translate
Struggling with a predefined role or expectation, making communication difficult.
And even though I'm older, I am still so damn afraid
Despite aging, still experiencing fear, possibly of vulnerability or rejection.
Of looking in or choking up, cause I can't trust what people say
Fearful of introspection or expressing emotions due to a lack of trust in others.
Cause I was born an alien, and so I can't relate
Feeling like an outsider or disconnected from others, unable to relate.
And my emotions like a greeting card that always shows up late
Emotions are expressed superficially, like a greeting card that lacks depth.
So now I'm on a mission to understand how people think
Attempting to understand human thinking, possibly for better connections.
When I was getting close to you I think it had me on the brink
Getting close to someone but feeling on the edge of a significant change.
And it's hard to take, that you can watch that passion all just wash away
Witnessing the fading of passion and realizing the irreversible nature of it.
And that you think of all the words when it's too late
Regretting not finding the right words until it's too late to express them.
Cause even though I'm older, I am still so damn afraid
Despite age, still experiencing fear, possibly of missed opportunities.
Of looking in or choking up, because I can't make people stay
Fearing vulnerability and the inability to make people stay in one's life.
I guess that's one thing that'll never change
Highlighting a persistent aspect of oneself that may never change.
Cause I'm still stuck inside my brain
Feeling mentally confined or stuck within one's own thoughts.
And I'm still feeling trapped inside my cage
Experiencing a sense of entrapment or confinement.
And even though I'm older, I am still so damn afraid
Despite aging, still fearful, perhaps of emotional pain or rejection.
Of looking in or choking up, from all this shit that I can't change
Fearing vulnerability due to circumstances beyond one's control.
To think that I could never see, the person that you wanted me to be
Expressing doubt about fulfilling others' expectations or desires.
Another version of the person that you'd paint on top of me
Feeling like a misrepresented version of oneself imposed by others.
Like two naked mannequins, that occupy this space
Using the metaphor of naked mannequins to depict exposed vulnerability.
While hiding bones and only clothes to show the love that they could make
Symbolizing a relationship that reveals vulnerability beneath external appearances.
And so instead I'll ride this wave and instead I'll take this stage
Choosing to navigate challenges and express oneself in a new way.
And instead I'll thrash and yell in this new universe I've made
Acting boldly in a self-created reality, possibly as a form of escape.
So two naked mannequins, we'll stay alone and safe
Opting for a safe but isolated existence, represented by mannequins.
But in a bitter state of mourning for the chance they didn't take
Expressing regret for not taking a chance, resulting in a mournful state.
And in a bitter state of mourning for the life they didn't make
Reflecting on the potential life that was not realized, leading to sorrow.
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