Never Hate Me
Introspective Chaos: Never Hate Me by Cooper Tropeau
Lyrics
Yeah I'm wondering what I've turned into
Reflecting on personal transformation and self-awareness.
It was a typical laid back afternoon
Describing a calm and ordinary afternoon.
I cracked two beers then I had four more
Consuming multiple beers in a short span.
And the next thing I know I'm knocking at your door
Unexpectedly finding oneself at someone's door.
Shot down I couldn't turn it around
Feeling rejected and unable to change the situation.
So I smashed my phone up against the wall
Expressing frustration by breaking the phone against a wall.
Doing myself a favour for later
Acting impulsively now to avoid future regret.
Cause the last thing I need is another drunk call
Avoiding making intoxicated calls for one's well-being.
Yeah and I know why it's over
Acknowledging the reasons for the relationship's end.
I never call you when I'm sober
Admitting a pattern of avoiding communication when sober.
Was on a bender last week and the month before
Recalling recent and past episodes of excessive drinking.
And I still ain't found what I'm looking for
Expressing a sense of unfulfillment despite previous actions.
It's getting worse as I get older
Noting a worsening situation with age.
Oh and now you're growing colder
Observing emotional distance growing in the relationship.
But it don't matter what I put you through
Recognizing the challenges imposed on the partner.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
Affirming self-awareness of personal shortcomings.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
Repetition for emphasis on self-awareness and self-hate.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
-You'll never hate me as much as I do
Reiterating the intensity of self-loathing.
I'm a mess what will I screw up next
Acknowledging personal chaos and anticipating mistakes.
With those slurred up words I said
Referring to previous drunken words causing trouble.
Well I swear it ain't just sex I'm wanting
Clarifying that desire isn't purely physical.
When I'm turned up
Expressing heightened emotions while under the influence.
But the words don't come out right
Struggling with communication when intoxicated.
And what I said I can't recall
Having difficulty remembering spoken words.
But I need this liquid confidence
Seeking confidence through alcohol for verbal expression.
Cause without it I won't say nothing at all
Recognizing the impact of alcohol on communication.
Yeah and I know why it's over
Reiterating the avoidance of sober communication.
I never call you when I'm sober
Recalling recent episodes of excessive drinking and avoidance.
Was on a bender last week and the month before
-And I still ain't found what I'm looking for
Reiterating the ongoing search for fulfillment.
It's getting worse as I get older
Noting a worsening situation with age.
Oh and now you're growing colder
Observing emotional distance growing in the relationship.
But it don't matter what I put you through
Recognizing the challenges imposed on the partner.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
Repetition for emphasis on self-awareness and self-hate.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
-You'll never hate me as much as I do
-You'll never hate me as much as I do
-Yeah and I know why it's over
Reiterating the avoidance of sober communication and ongoing search.
I never call you when I'm sober
-Was on a bender last week and the month before
-And I still ain't found what I'm looking for
-It's getting worse as I get older
Noting a worsening situation with age.
Oh and now you're growing colder
Observing emotional distance growing in the relationship.
But it don't matter what I put you through
Recognizing the challenges imposed on the partner.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
Final repetition for emphasis on self-awareness and self-hate.
You'll never hate me as much as I do
-You'll never hate me as much as I do
-You'll never hate me as much as I do
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