Looking for my dreams
Seeking Dreams Amidst Despair: A Tale of Self-Destruction
Lyrics
When I was looking for my dreams on the moon
Searching for dreams on the moon, metaphorically seeking aspirations in an unreachable place.
The thoughts of giving up came way to soon
Contemplating giving up too early in the pursuit of dreams.
Well this substance makes me feel this kind of way
Indicating that a substance influences the speaker's emotions or state of mind.
I just lay down on my bad because I can
Choosing to lay down, possibly overwhelmed by the situation or the effects of the substance.
Well now it's time for a beer and a line
Turning to alcohol and drugs (beer and a line) as a coping mechanism, avoiding the need to make an effort.
'Cause then I never have to try
Expressing a desire to avoid trying by relying on substances.
Gets me up and down
Describing the impact of substances, suggesting a fluctuation between highs and lows.
Why am I such a clown
Reflecting on oneself with self-deprecating humor, acknowledging a clown-like behavior.
When I was looking for my dreams in someones head
Previously seeking dreams in someone else, discovering shared sadness.
I found out that he's just as sad
Realizing that the other person is also struggling emotionally.
But I think that it's the only way to go
Considering that the shared sadness may be an unavoidable part of the journey.
Just to find out that it's just as sad
Accepting the sad reality after seeking and finding.
Well now it's time for a soda and a drink
Shifting to softer substances (soda and a drink) to numb thoughts and emotions.
'Cause then I never have to think
Choosing not to think by relying on substances for escape.
I'm not going to tell
Deciding to keep silent about personal struggles.
That's why I'm going to hell
Expressing a sense of guilt or remorse, anticipating consequences.
Well fuck this life is just to much
Feeling overwhelmed by life's challenges, expressing frustration.
So why am I here
Questioning existence and purpose, contemplating the reasons for being alive.
There is so much that I fear
Admitting to various fears that contribute to the overwhelming feelings.
Now it's time for a beer and line
Returning to alcohol and drugs as a means of avoiding effort and reality.
'Cause then I never have to try
Reiterating the avoidance of trying by relying on substances.
It gets me up and down
Describing the cyclical nature of substance use, with highs and lows.
Why am I such a clown
Questioning oneself with self-awareness about clown-like behavior.
I'm so fucking drunk
Expressing intoxication and the need for sobriety.
And I need to get sober
Acknowledging the need to overcome drunkenness and regain clarity.
I'm not going to tell
Repeating the decision to keep silent about personal struggles.
That's why I'm going to hell
Reiterating a sense of guilt or anticipation of negative consequences.
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