Every Now and Then
Reflecting on Choices: Every Now and Then
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I never said it was your fault
I acknowledge it's not your fault
But then again I didn't say much at all
I didn't communicate much at that time
But when I think about who I was then
Reflecting on my past self
I wonder what could have been
Contemplating missed opportunities
Every now and then I think that maybe I should stay
Sometimes consider staying in the present
Cause every time that I'm with you I see it differently
Perceptions change when I'm with you
It's been a long time coming
Long-awaited consequences catching up
Consequences catching up to me
Facing repercussions of past actions
Never expected you to carry the weight
Didn't expect you to bear the burden
Alone or at all
Alone or not, didn't anticipate this responsibility
I checked out
I emotionally withdrew
Abandoning totally
Completely abandoned my responsibilities
I never said it was your fault
Reiterating it's not your fault
But then again you weren't home
You weren't there when I needed you
I had so many questions in those days
Had numerous unanswered questions in the past
Driven on by all the feelings in me
Driven by intense emotions
But when I think about where I am now
Considering my current situation
I know I can't put my guard down
Unable to lower my guard
Every now and then I wonder if I would have stayed
Occasionally wonder about staying in the past
If I hadn't learned to separate the comfort from the pain
Learned to distinguish comfort from pain
Pulling weeds up by the roots
Metaphorically uprooting problems
In an empty driveway
In an empty space
I'm not counting on a vacancy
Not relying on finding a place
Alone or at all
Alone or not, emotionally detached
So checked out
Checked out mentally
Abandoning totally
Complete abandonment of responsibilities
I never said it was your fault
Reiterating it's not your fault
So many questions buried where
Many questions unanswered and buried
I couldn't tell you
Unable to share where they are
There's an elegant simplicity in waiting for you to get yours
Finding satisfaction in others facing consequences
Avert my eyes and focus on the footing
Turning away, focusing on stability
A hill of ferns to lay my head to rest in
Finding solace in nature
The sun or the rain
Indifferent to external conditions
While I can still dream on and on
Dreaming persistently
While I can still dream on and on and on
Continuing to dream despite challenges
Every now and then I think that maybe I should stay
Sometimes contemplate staying in the present
Cause every time that I'm with you I see it differently
Perceptions shift when with you
Every now and then I wonder if I would have stayed
Occasionally wonder about staying in the past
If I hadn't learned to separate the comfort from the pain
Learned to differentiate between comfort and pain
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