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Bottles on my desk so I don't look back
Using bottles as a distraction or coping mechanism to avoid dwelling on the past.
Think I got the symptoms of a heart attack
Feeling physical symptoms due to emotional distress, possibly suggesting intense emotional pain.
Fuckin up my system so I write that
Channeling emotional pain into creative expression by writing.
Put all of my pieces in a notepad
Compiling or organizing one's emotions or experiences in a written form.
I can't see the road everything is gray
Feeling lost or uncertain, unable to perceive a clear path forward.
I can feel my heart drop, how the times change
Experiencing a sudden drop in optimism or hopefulness, acknowledging changes in circumstances.
Memories in my pocket feel like our remains
Keeping memories close, as if they are all that remain of a past relationship or experience.
I thought I was good now, what a shame
Realizing a supposed improvement or recovery was only temporary or false.
Tell me you love me, then leave on the daily
Experiencing a cycle of being told affectionate words but facing constant abandonment.
I'm fuckin exhausted, I'm swimming in saline
Feeling emotionally drained and immersed in emotional pain, possibly comparing it to being submerged in saline solution.
What is the difference, if you fuckin hate me
Questioning the relevance of being treated poorly when there's already intense dislike or hatred.
Between what is lost and what's goin to save me
Feeling torn between what has been lost and what might provide salvation or healing.
I'm losing it
Expressing a sense of losing control or composure.
I melt into your touch and then I'm bruised and it hurts
Feeling a mix of vulnerability and pain when touched or connected emotionally.
I'm scared of fucking up cuz then I'll be at my worst
Fearing failure because it would amplify one's vulnerabilities or weaknesses.
I'll fade into the grass and let you keep all my shirts
Being willing to disappear or fade away from a relationship, leaving belongings behind.
Cause I know you still care
Recognizing that despite the situation, there's an acknowledgment of care from the other person.
I know you'll be tattered
Expecting the other person to also be emotionally worn or damaged.
I can't fucking leave
Feeling trapped or unable to leave a situation despite the desire to do so.
But my mind has been scattered
Having a scattered or disorganized mind despite feeling tied to a situation.
All over the place now
Feeling overwhelmed or disoriented by various conflicting emotions.
Just wait for the breakdown
Anticipating an emotional breakdown or collapse.
Not scared to be face down
Not fearing being at one's lowest point emotionally.
I've been there before
Having experienced emotional breakdowns or lows in the past.
I've been there before
Reiterating past experiences of emotional lows or breakdowns.
(I'm losing it)
Re-emphasizing a sense of losing control or composure.
(I melt into your touch and then I'm bruised and it hurts)
Repeating the feeling of vulnerability and pain when emotionally connected.
(I'm scared of fucking up cuz then I'll be at my worst)
Reiterating the fear of failure due to potential worsening of one's situation.
(I'll fade into the grass and let you keep all my shirts)
Reaffirming willingness to disappear from the relationship, leaving possessions behind.
Bottles on my desk so I don't look back
Repeating the use of bottles as a means to avoid looking back or dwelling on the past.
Think I got the symptoms of a heart attack
Repeating the feeling of physical symptoms linked to emotional distress.
Fuckin up my system so I write that
Reiterating the process of using writing as an outlet for emotional pain.
Put all of my pieces in a notepad
Reiterating the act of organizing or compiling emotions in writing.
I can't see the road everything is gray
Reiterating a feeling of uncertainty or lack of direction.
I can feel my heart drop, how the times change
Repeating the sense of sudden and drastic change in circumstances or emotions.
Memories in my pocket feel like our remains
Reiterating the closeness of memories from a past relationship or experience.
I thought I was good now, what a shame
Reiterating the realization that a perceived improvement or recovery was short-lived.
Tell me you love me, then leave on the daily
Reiterating the cycle of being told affectionate words but facing constant abandonment.
I'm fuckin exhausted, I'm swimming in saline
Reiterating the feeling of being emotionally drained and submerged in pain.
What is the difference, if you fuckin hate me
Reiterating the questioning of mistreatment despite existing dislike.
Between what is lost and what's goin to save me
Reiterating the internal conflict between past losses and potential salvation.
What's going to save me?
Repeating the question about what might bring salvation or
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