Lyrics
i don’t wanna kill myself, yet, but i’ve thought about it.
I currently don't want to take my own life, but I've contemplated it.
and i don’t wanna fill myself with regret
I aim to avoid feeling intense regret.
but i got it and that’s how i always will feel
I possess this feeling, and it's a persistent aspect of my emotional state.
how i always will be
This emotional state is a fundamental and unchanging part of who I am.
it’s not ‘bout what i want b
My focus is not on what I desire but on what the future holds.
it’s bout what it will be
The emphasis is on the inevitable future rather than personal preferences.
how i always will feel
Reiteration of the enduring nature of the emotional state.
how i always will be
-if this is just a break, then
If the current situation is just a temporary pause, then...
was this thing, a real thing?
Questioning the authenticity of a past relationship or experience.
it’s like you filled with with silicone
Comparing emotions to being filled with something artificial (silicone).
it’s not, but it feels real
Despite being artificial, the emotions feel real.
tell me what’s the real deal
Request for clarity on the genuine nature of the situation.
once i stop, then i feel alone
Feeling alone only when the emotional turmoil subsides.
and i don’t wanna feel alone, no more
Expressing a desire to avoid feeling alone in the future.
and i don’t want this silicone, no more
Rejecting the artificial (silicone) element in emotions.
yeah yeah,
Expression of affirmation or agreement.
yeah yeah,
-dímelo, habla claro, ¿qué te pasa?
Asking for clarity in Spanish, questioning what's happening.
pendejo, ¿qué pasa contigo?
Using strong language to express confusion or frustration.
yeah yeah,
Expression of affirmation or agreement.
yeah yeah,
-dímelo, habla claro, ¿qué te pasa?
Repetition of the question in Spanish, seeking clarity.
pendejo, ¿qué pasa contigo?
Repetition of strong language, expressing confusion or frustration.
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