Lyrics
It's been 24 years with this psychosis
Reflection on 24 years of experiencing psychosis.
All these voices moving 'round in my head are buzzing like locusts
Voices in the head are overwhelming, likened to buzzing locusts.
Tragic misdiagnosis got me on a cocktail of psychotropics
Misdiagnosis led to a mix of psychotropic medications.
Made me think that I'm Super Man or maybe Dr. Dre through osmosis
Feeling like a superhero due to the influence of medication.
And this is the closest I've ever been to being outside of my brain
Describing a state close to being disconnected from reality.
Got blood stains on my Haynes from cutting this lame was blocking my lane
Metaphorical blood stains from overcoming obstacles in life.
They Locked me up in this hoosegow for the criminally insane
Being confined for being perceived as criminally insane.
When they showed me a stack of Rorschach's I seen more stacks in them stains
Seeing more than just inkblots in Rorschach tests.
Maladies fill the pages of all the newspapers as well as the streets of my town
Reference to societal issues present in newspapers and the streets.
The walls that separate Grand Theft Auto from reality's all falling down
Breaking down the walls between video games and reality.
HELP
A plea for help, questioning the blurred line between reality and fiction.
Is this just a movie or is it real life cuz I don't know now
Uncertainty about whether the situation is real or from a movie.
Is it a tweet or is the streets
Questioning the authenticity of information in the digital age.
Am I in a meme am I in a dream am I in America
Uncertainty about the nature of existence in the contemporary world.
It's been 28 years in the neighborhood
Reflecting on 28 years in a troubled neighborhood.
People must be waiting for some good's why they say what's good
Speculating on why people inquire about well-being in such an environment.
Next door neighbor robbed is mother, one brother stabbed the other over petty shit
Illustrating violent incidents within the neighborhood.
I heard two fifth graders fighting in the school yard over how much head they get
Highlighting disturbing conversations among young individuals.
Coupe of homeless chicks beg by the store but I refuse to give 'em coins
Refusing to support homeless individuals begging for money.
Couple of gangs hang where I hang but I refuse to join
Choosing not to join gangs despite their presence.
So now they don't like me Boo Hoo Hoo!
Expressing indifference towards disapproval from others.
They made me take the long way home
Forced to take a longer route home due to conflicts.
But now I pack a surprise in my back pocket and rome where I rome
Carrying a surprise for self-defense while wandering.
Out all alone
Emphasizing solitude while being outdoors.
In the cold
Experiencing isolation in the cold.
Tagging my name on the pay phone
Tagging one's name on a payphone as a form of self-expression.
Spraying my mark in the park after dark, park up and spark a bone
Engaging in rebellious behavior in the park at night.
It's like my soul is atrophied
Describing a feeling of soul atrophy, lacking respect for anything.
I aint got no respect for nothing
Expressing a lack of respect for various aspects of life.
Is it serious when I threaten to take your life or am I bluffing?
Pondering the seriousness of threats to take a life.
or is it hysteria?
Questioning whether the emotional intensity is genuine or exaggerated.
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