All The Ways I Could Die
Contemplating Life's Dark Depths
Lyrics
Stumbling
Expressing difficulty or instability
Home through the rain
Returning home in the rain
Temptations tattooed on my brain
Struggling with tempting thoughts
Wondering
Questioning
Why can't I just be
Desiring self-acceptance
Happy with me as I am
Finding happiness within oneself
Suffering
Undergoing hardship
Through all the signs
Ignoring warning signs
Blind to all the times I was fine
Unaware of past contentment
Used to say
Previous mindset: "I play god"
"I don't play fair I play god
Declaring a lack of fairness
And that's all that I've got"
Emphasizing limited options
I just can't wait to go sit in my room
Eager to isolate and reflect
Contemplate all the ways I could die
Contemplating various ways of self-destruction
Self sabotage is an old friend of mine
Self-sabotage is familiar
And self care just isn't worth the time
Dismissing self-care as unimportant
Seeing sound
Perceiving sounds or crises
Crisis abound
Experiencing chaos
Found Nobody's really themselves
Realizing people hide their true selves
Paradise
Regretting missed opportunities
Wasted on me
Feeling unworthy of paradise
Now let's see how I fail by design
Expecting failure by design
I just can't wait to go sit in my room
Anticipating solitude for reflection
Contemplate all the ways I could die
Reiterating contemplation of self-harm
Self sabotage is an old friend of mine
Repeating familiarity with self-sabotage
And self care just isn't worth the time
Reemphasizing neglect of self-care
Done rearranging my mind for the chase
Finished rearranging thoughts for pursuit
Won't let all my ambition go to waste
Determined not to waste ambition
If everything's nothing, then what's left to blame?
Questioning when everything is meaningless
It all changes and nothing's the same
Accepting change and loss of familiarity
OOOOooOOooo
Expressing emotional intensity
Watch me fall out of fashion
Anticipating a decline in popularity
The high's finally crashin' tonight
Acknowledging the end of a positive state
OOOOooOOooo
Repeating emotional intensity
All my demons disguised
Confronting personal demons and faults
And my faults all reprised
Repeating acknowledgment of personal flaws
Find myself in a lover
Finding discomfort in a romantic connection
The thought makes me shudder
Expressing discomfort at the thought
They're just like the others
Comparing current lover to past experiences
Backtrack and recover
Reflecting on past mistakes and learning
Now I just can't wait
Eagerly anticipating solitude
To go hide in my home
Desiring seclusion at home
Shut the door be alone
Intending to be alone
Brace the fall on my own
Preparing to face challenges independently
I just can't wait to go sit in my room
Repeating the anticipation of isolation
Contemplate all the ways I could die
Reiterating contemplation of self-harm
Self sabotage is an old friend of mine
Repeating familiarity with self-sabotage
And self care just isn't worth the time
Reemphasizing neglect of self-care
Done rearranging my mind for the chase
Finished rearranging thoughts for pursuit
Won't let all my ambition go to waste
Determined not to waste ambition
If everything's nothing, then what's left to blame?
Questioning when everything is meaningless
It all changes and nothing's the same
Accepting change and loss of familiarity
Comment