Lyrics
I'm trapped in my head, but
I feel trapped within my thoughts
I'm stuck in my mind
I am unable to break free from my own mental constraints
Searching for a me I will never
I am on a quest to discover a version of myself that may never exist
Find
Struggling to find my true identity
Trying so hard to put the pieces
Putting effort into healing a shattered soul
Of a broken soul, back together
Trying to piece together the fragments of my broken self
Again
Repeating the process of self-restoration
I lost myself, so many times
I've lost my true self multiple times
Searching for a life that was
Seeking a life that was never meant for me
Never mine
Struggling with a false perception of who I should be
My own misconception about
Realizing my own misconceptions about my identity
Who I should be, is always
Constantly causing inner chaos with unrealistic expectations
Stirring up chaos inside me
So I'm burning out again
Experiencing burnout once again
But it feels like the first time
Feels like facing this struggle for the first time
That ill get in my own way
Sabotaging my own progress
And ill tear up my own life
Causing harm to my own life
I find shelter in my pain
Finding solace in my emotional pain
And it helps me through the
Using pain as a coping mechanism through the night
Night
Contrasting the solace found in pain with the turmoil in my mind
Not like my own mind
Expressing the proximity to a mental breakdown
I'm so close to burning down
I wanna forget who I am
Desiring to forget my past and present self
Who I was
Rejecting my own history
I hate what I've become
Disliking the person I've become
Is it too much to ask for lost identity
Yearning for a lost sense of identity
I'm ok, I'm fine, let this all be in my
Projecting a facade of being okay in my own thoughts
Mind
Trying to confine everything to my mind
Before I lose myself entirely
Realizing the urgency to prevent losing myself completely
I'm burning out
Experiencing burnout
I'm burning out
Reiterating the feeling of burning out
I'm burning out again
Repeating the cycle of burnout
So I'm burning out again
Going through burnout once more
But it feels like the first time
Repeating the sensation of facing burnout for the first time
That ill get in my own way
Self-sabotage and destruction of my own path
And ill tear up my own life
Damaging my own life through destructive behavior
So I'm burning out again
Undergoing burnout again
But it feels like the first time
Revisiting the feeling of encountering burnout anew
That ill get in my own way
Obstructing my own progress once again
And ill tear up my own life
Causing harm to my own life, repeating the cycle
I find shelter in my pain
Finding comfort in the familiarity of pain
And it helps me through the
Using pain as a source of strength through the night
Night
Comparing the comfort of pain with the chaos in my mind
Not like my own mind
Expressing the imminent danger of a mental breakdown
I'm so close to burning down
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