Lyrics
What if I have terrible dream
Contemplating the possibility of having a disturbing dream
What if I never fall asleep
Concerns about the inability to fall asleep
What if my head gets real mean
Fearful of negative thoughts taking over the mind
Every fuck up on repeat
Reflection on repeating past mistakes
Counting sins instead of sheep
Choosing to focus on personal faults rather than positive thoughts
What if I just keep buying stuff
Using material possessions as a coping mechanism
What if the tides keep rising up
Concerns about challenges and obstacles continuing to increase
What if the world's finally had enough
Questioning if the world has reached a breaking point
What if all the news is right
Doubting the accuracy of news and its impact on perception
What if it's the end this time
Fearing that the end of something significant is approaching
What if I get lonely as hell
Anticipating loneliness and questioning self-talk
What if it's weird if I talk to myself
Concerns about the strangeness of talking to oneself
What if reality starts to mel
Fear of a distorted reality and seeking relief
What I scream for sweet relief
Expressing a desire for relief from emotional pain
What if I fucking cray crazy
Fear of losing mental stability and becoming irrational
What if end up bitter and poor
Worrying about a future marked by bitterness and poverty
What if I always wish I had more
Always desiring more and fearing regret
What if I'm shot walking out my door
Fear of a violent end while leaving home
What if I'm constantly at war
Constantly battling inner conflicts and uncertainties
With what I'm even doing this for
Questioning the purpose and motivation behind actions
Can't get out of this bed
Feeling trapped and unable to get out of bed
But I can't close my eyes
Unable to find solace in sleep
Living inside of this head it ain't a real life
Life within the mind is not reflective of a real, fulfilling life
What if sometimes I wanna make the call
Contemplating the decision to reach out to others
What if my brain's become a free for all
Thoughts spiraling out of control, losing mental clarity
What if I wanna splatter it on the walls
Expressing a desire for a drastic, attention-grabbing action
Jesus Christ well don't you think
Reflection on the potential for being perceived as a drama king
I might just be the drama king ya
Questioning the concept of happiness and personal role in drama
And what if happiness is a myth
Doubting one's own existence and purpose
And what if I don't even exist
Contemplating the possibility that happiness is elusive
But what if just maybe this is it
Considering the present moment as significant despite uncertainties
Think of all the life I'll miss
Reflecting on potential missed opportunities in life
Sittin' around playing what if
Recognizing the habit of pondering "what if" scenarios
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