Lyrics
It's like lying in my coffin
Feeling trapped or confined, as if in a coffin.
With nails between my fingertips
Suffering and pain, represented by nails between fingertips.
So before I even rest
Before finding peace or rest, there's a need to inflict more pain.
I can start hammering them in
Symbolic action of self-inflicted suffering before resting.
Because I'm not able to start resting
Rest is hindered by clenched fists, indicating unresolved issues.
Until I unclench my fists
The need to let go and relax in order to move forward.
It makes me wonder why we dig
Questioning the purpose of creating shallow, temporary existences.
These shallow graves where we exist
Reflecting on the nature of the places where we live and thrive.
It makes me think about the epitaph
Contemplating the summary or legacy of missed opportunities.
Of everything I wish I did
Regretting not asking about emotions and experiences.
I wish I asked you what you felt
Desiring to understand the feelings during the last conversation.
The last time we talked about
Discussion about living without a sense of purpose.
What it was like to live
Repetition emphasizes the absence of will to live.
Without the will to live at all
Intense feeling of stagnation and being overwhelmed by loss.
Without the will to live at all
-Without the will to live at all
-I feel like I'm standing still in sand
Feeling stuck, not progressing, while memories are buried.
Watching wave after wave of you bury my hands
Metaphor for losing control, waves burying hands symbolize defeat.
Lost in the sights
Reflecting on shared experiences and memories.
We have shared these sunsets and these nights
Symbolism of journeys represented by constellations on roads.
Dotted lines on the road are the constellations we call home
Expressing frustration about personal growth and self-perception.
Why can't I ever be the person I want to become
Loss of a metaphorical protective barrier in a relationship.
I have lost that lovely ceiling
The loss of an idealized vision or expectation.
I have built on top our love
The realization that love built on unrealistic expectations is fragile.
Now that you've withdrawn your support
Acknowledging the withdrawal of emotional support.
I know I'm not enough
Acceptance of inadequacy and the emotional impact of it.
I know I'm not enough
-I know
-Alone in the basement with my doubt
Isolation and emotional struggle in a metaphorical basement.
I am still locked out
-Until I wear them in my skin
The persistence of doubt and the desire for self-inflicted changes.
Until every phrase is branded in
-Until I can't remember how I felt
Loss of memory or emotional connection due to pain.
She said despite my sweet heart
Conflicting qualities - warmth to hold but cold to touch.
I have these bitter bones
-And even with my love she would rather be alone
-That I was warm to hold
Realization that love, despite efforts, is not sufficient.
But cold to the touch
-And despite my love
-I could never be enough
-I could never be enough
Repetition emphasizes the sense of inadequacy.
I could never be enough
-I've lost that lovely ceiling I built up
The loss of an idealized vision or expectation (repeated).
I cannot reconstruct
Unable to reconstruct positive memories, corruption of experiences.
The memories everything is corrupt
-I've lost that lovely ceiling I built up
-Alone in the basement with my thoughts
Isolation with introspective thoughts after emotional rejection.
After you said
Reflecting on the impact of being told one is not enough.
I could never be enough
-I could never be enough
Reiteration of the theme of inadequacy and not being sufficient.
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