I'm Not Here for You
Breaking Free: Empowering Anthem of Self-Discovery by Emma Hamel
Lyrics
Is it self inflicted self-destruction
Reflecting on whether the struggles faced are self-inflicted acts of self-destruction.
I get hung up on grand productions
Expressing a tendency to become fixated on elaborate and dramatic situations.
Now I can't sleep
Insomnia or difficulty sleeping, possibly due to emotional turmoil.
They say pick your battles carefully
Advising to choose battles wisely, contrasting with a careless encounter with someone.
But you stopped by so carelessly
Highlighting the impact of someone's casual visit and a desire for them to leave.
I wish you'd leave
Expressing a wish for the person to depart.
And it all feels so aimless until it doesn't
Life seems purposeless until a turning point is reached.
And I want back my headspace when it wasn't
Desiring a return to a mental state before it became confused and cynical.
So addled and cynical
Feeling confused and cynical in contrast to the desired mental state.
Cause I'm not here for you
Emphasizing that the speaker's presence is not for the other person.
You act like I can't choose
Challenging the perception that the speaker lacks the ability to make choices.
I'm tired of running circles
Expressing exhaustion from repetitive and unproductive actions.
As if I'm not in control
Rejecting the notion of being out of control, asserting agency.
I'm still in control
Reaffirming control despite challenging circumstances.
I'm still, I'm still in control of you
Asserting continued control over the situation.
You went and left me spiraling
Reacting to the aftermath of being abandoned, feeling disoriented.
You act entitled and pull the strings
Perceiving the other person as manipulative and controlling.
So I feel lost
Expressing a sense of being lost in the situation.
But one day you'll see what I can do
Anticipating a future where the speaker's capabilities will be recognized.
The day I start ignoring you
Envisioning a moment when the speaker starts ignoring the other person.
You'll watch in awe
Expecting the other person to be amazed by the speaker's actions.
And it all felt so painless for a minute
Recalling a brief period of ease in the situation.
You act so blameless when you visit
Observing a facade of innocence during a visit but expecting the person to stay away.
But this time you'll stay away
Expressing a desire for the person to stay away this time.
Cause I'm not here for you
Reiterating that the speaker's presence is not for the other person.
You act like I can't choose
Challenging the assumption that the speaker lacks the ability to choose.
I'm tired of running circles
Expressing fatigue from repeating unproductive patterns.
As if I'm not in control
Rejecting the idea of being out of control and asserting agency.
I'm still in control
Reaffirming control despite challenging circumstances.
I'm still, I'm still in control
Asserting continued control over the situation.
Though you still knock, I know I'm not here for you
Despite continued attempts, the speaker is not available for the other person.
You look so small, after all you put me through
Observing the other person as diminished in significance after causing turmoil.
You tie a tight knot, turns out you're not here for me
Realizing the other person's lack of commitment to the relationship.
What did I know, broke me down so quietly
Reflecting on being broken down quietly and realizing the impact.
You took my life, better say goodbye as I take it back
Reclaiming agency and bidding farewell to a detrimental influence.
Didn't think you'd learn, I'll repeat my words
Expressing surprise at the other person not learning from past experiences.
I'm not here for you
Reiterating that the speaker is not present for the other person.
I'm not here for you
Emphasizing the speaker's independence from the other person's expectations.
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