Even If
Embracing Demons: Consequences of Toxic Love and Self-Reflection
Lyrics
Made myself a promise but I'm so good at this
Made a promise to myself but struggle to keep it
Feeding the fire that's gonna burn me
Fueling a destructive force that will harm me
Now winter's at my door
Winter symbolizes challenges, and it's at the doorstep
All my clothes are on the floor
Symbolic disarray, possibly emotional or physical
I can't control my dreams or my nightmares
Lack of control over dreams and nightmares
I sit up on the barstool and I watch the sun go down
Observing sunset, contemplating life
I smoke enough to kill me and I drink enough to drown
Engaging in self-destructive behaviors (smoking, drinking)
Hanging onto nothing until nothing feels like new
Clutching onto emptiness, seeking renewal
And I've got no-one to blame
No one else to blame for personal struggles
I sure as hell can't go blaming you
Acknowledging personal responsibility
I'm sick of my own mind
Frustration with one's own thoughts
I drink the water, wish for wine
Choosing the mundane over something more fulfilling
Lust is almost always never love
Highlighting the difference between lust and love
Even if she's everything
Suggesting that even if a person is perfect
Everything your dreams have been made of
Acknowledging idealized dreams
I must be full of it, still dreaming of your kiss
Still desiring a past love
I can still taste you in the morning
Memories linger, especially in the morning
That me is dead and gone
The old self is gone, realizing mistakes
I know all I did wrong
Accepting past errors
Knew we were poison when I met you
Acknowledging toxicity in a past relationship
I sit up on the barstool and I watch the sun go down
Reflecting on life as the day ends
I smoke enough to kill me and I drink enough to drown
Continued self-destructive habits
Hanging onto nothing until nothing feels like new
Clutching onto emptiness, seeking renewal (repeated)
And I've got no-one to blame
No one else to blame for personal struggles (repeated)
I sure as hell can't go blaming you
Acknowledging personal responsibility (repeated)
I'm sick of my own mind
Frustration with one's own thoughts (repeated)
I drink the water, wish for wine
Choosing the mundane over something more fulfilling (repeated)
Lust is almost always never love
Highlighting the difference between lust and love (repeated)
Even if she's everything
Suggesting that even if a person is perfect (repeated)
Everything your dreams have been made of
Acknowledging idealized dreams (repeated)
I sit up on the barstool and I watch the sun go down
Reflecting on life as the day ends (repeated)
I smoke enough to kill me and I drink enough to drown
Continued self-destructive habits (repeated)
Hanging onto nothing until nothing feels like new
Clutching onto emptiness, seeking renewal (repeated)
And I've got no-one to blame
No one else to blame for personal struggles (repeated)
I sure as hell can't go blaming you
Acknowledging personal responsibility (repeated)
I'm sick of my own mind
Frustration with one's own thoughts (repeated)
I drink the water, wish for wine
Choosing the mundane over something more fulfilling (repeated)
Lust is almost always never love
Highlighting the difference between lust and love (repeated)
Even if she's everything
Suggesting that even if a person is perfect (repeated)
Everything your dreams have been made of
Acknowledging idealized dreams (repeated)
Made myself a promise
Made a promise to oneself (repeated)
But I'm so good at this
Struggling to keep the promise (repeated)
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