Addicted to Suffering
Embracing Pain: The Relentless Journey of Redemption
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Had a few good days,
Reflecting on some positive experiences in the past.
plenty of bad years.
Despite occasional good days, overall experiences have been difficult.
Caused a handful of smiles
Contributed to a few moments of happiness for others.
but launched a thousand tears.
Caused significant emotional pain and distress for many.
I seek out expiation
Actively seeking atonement to purify oneself from wrongdoing.
as a means to cleanse my sins.
Using suffering as a way to cleanse and absolve sins.
The Saint of the Void
Referring to a figure, possibly a deity, who relieves pain.
takes away the pain I'm in.
Finding relief from the pain through spiritual means.
Addicted to the suffering
Expressing a repeated pattern of being drawn to suffering.
I do it again and again
Acknowledging a cycle of willingly experiencing pain.
My path in life: as crooked as my nose.
Describing a morally questionable and turbulent life journey.
I'm still a piece of shit
Recognizing one's own flaws and shortcomings.
and everybody knows
Public awareness of personal shortcomings.
I never gave a fuck if I lived or died.
Indifference towards one's own life and well-being.
Starting to change my mind
Contemplating a shift in perspective about life and death.
and that scares me me inside.
Feeling internal conflict about changing perspective.
Addicted to the suffering
Reiterating a compulsive attraction to suffering.
I do it again and again
Repeating the pattern of willingly embracing suffering.
Trying to redeem myself
Striving for redemption before the end of life's journey.
before the finish line.
Not seeking approval from a higher power, but seeking peace of mind.
Not to please a god,
Emphasizing a personal motive rather than pleasing a deity.
to ease my tortured mind.
Seeking relief from mental anguish and torment.
I don't think I'm crazy
Denying insanity but acknowledging internal struggles.
but who am I to say?
Expressing uncertainty about one's mental state.
It could be self hatred
Suggesting that self-hatred might be a cause of the emotional state.
that makes me feel this way.
Speculating on the possible source of emotional distress.
Addicted to the suffering
Affirming the repetitive nature of willingly experiencing pain.
I do it again and again.
Acknowledging the continuous cycle of embracing suffering.
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