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I been dealing with trauma and demons
I have been dealing with trauma and demons.
I been making em hurt again
I have been causing pain to others again.
Want my T-shirt in some Louis shit
I desire to wear luxury brands like Louis Vuitton.
Put the feelings inside a range
I conceal my emotions within a certain lifestyle.
Mama flexing so I don't feel shit
My mother shows off, but I remain emotionally numb.
Think the Diamonds go cure the pain
I believe that diamonds will alleviate my emotional pain.
Hate just make me a type of demon
Hate turns me into a demonic figure.
Put that frame into Mary Jane
I cope with difficulties by using marijuana (Mary Jane).
And the whole time I was uptight with it
I was struggling internally during this period.
I couldn't kill myself
I couldn't bring myself to commit suicide.
I just let myself go
I chose to let go of my burdens.
I don't wanna hold on no more
I don't want to hold on to pain any longer.
And the whole time I was uptight with it
I was internally conflicted during this time.
I couldn't kill myself
I couldn't contemplate suicide.
I just let myself go
I decided to release myself from inner struggles.
I don't wanna hold on no more
I'm ready to let go of my emotional burdens.
Mama see pics and think I'm heathen
My mother sees my lifestyle and thinks I'm a sinner.
She don't know that I miss the church
She is unaware that I miss attending church.
All the munchies kept me in sermons
Munchies (snacks) kept me occupied during sermons.
Me and the bro would take more than one
My friend and I would consume more than necessary.
Now I can't get back the years of preaching
I cannot reclaim the years spent without religious guidance.
That came true before 21
Events prophesied before turning 21 have come true.
Now I won't say that I love my demons
I won't admit to loving my demons, but they inspire my music.
But they help me to write a song
Demons assist me in the creative process of writing songs.
And the whole time I was uptight with it
I struggled internally during this time.
I couldn't control myself
I couldn't control my actions.
I just let myself go
I chose to let myself go and be free.
I didn't wanna hold on no more
I didn't want to cling to pain any longer.
And the whole time I was uptight with it
I was internally conflicted during this time.
I couldn't kill myself
I couldn't contemplate suicide.
I just let myself go
I decided to release myself from inner struggles.
I don't wanna hold on no more
I'm ready to let go of my emotional burdens.
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