i'm an alchemist
Alchemy of Love Lost: Emotions Transmuted in 'I'm an Alchemist'
Lyrics
Yeah
Expression of agreement or acknowledgment.
It's like a glitch in the matrix
Comparing the situation to a disturbance in a programmed reality.
The minutes take ages and then they're gone
Perception of time being inconsistent.
Goodbye to the places
Bidding farewell to locations.
Goodbye to the spaces we shared a home
Saying goodbye to shared spaces and the concept of home.
And I really hope that you do get everything that you want
Expressing a wish for the other person to achieve their desires.
I leave and I hate it
Feelings of dislike upon leaving.
In seconds I'm gone, you're cold on the phone
Quick departure causing emotional distance.
And we never yell, cause we never fight for real
Conflict avoidance and lack of genuine fights.
You're a pacifist, I'm a masochist, and I won't take the time to heal
Describing contrasting personalities - pacifist vs. masochist.
You were passionate, but my passiveness was the catalyst
The speaker's passiveness led to relationship issues.
The analysis is unanimous
A unanimous analysis of the situation.
It's no accident, the antagonist
The speaker acknowledges being the cause of the conflict.
I'm an alchemist, turning love to unhappiness
Self-identification as an alchemist transforming love into unhappiness.
I'm an alchemist, turning love to unhappiness
Reiteration of being an alchemist in love.
I need to get my act right
Acknowledging the need for personal improvement.
You asked if it's for real this time
Question about the authenticity of the current situation.
The conversation makes us cry
Conversations causing emotional distress.
And I'm still not sure what happened
Uncertainty about a past event or situation.
It's like there's a gap in my memory
Describing a gap in memory.
I know I was manic, and I wasn't who I thought I would be
Reflecting on a manic episode and a deviation from one's true self.
If I had known then that you were everything I really want
If aware of the importance of the other person earlier, would the speaker have been honest.
Would I stay and be honest, could I finally be honest, would I be honest
Contemplating honesty in the past.
Call you when I'm drunk, call you when I'm stoned
Contacting the other person under the influence.
Call you in the middle of the night when I think I'm gonna die, and I'm alone
Reaching out in moments of vulnerability.
My chest is tight, you answer the phone
Physical symptoms of distress.
You tell me it's alright, tell me it's alright
Assurance from the other person that everything will be fine.
I'm an alchemist, turning love to unhappiness
Reiteration of being an alchemist in love.
I need to get my act right
Re-emphasizing the need for personal improvement.
You asked if it's for real this time
Repeating the question about the authenticity of the situation.
The conversation makes us cry
Continued emotional impact of conversations.
We could just lie about it
Suggesting the option of lying about the situation.
Doesn't mean we never had to cry about it
Recognizing the possibility of crying despite lying.
Doesn't really mean it wasn't right when you were mine, and I was yours, yeah
Asserting the meaningfulness of the past relationship.
All the time, I'd catch your eye, and every night
Recalling shared moments of connection.
We could just lie about it
Reiterating the option of lying about the situation.
Doesn't really mean we'd never cry about it
Acknowledging the potential for tears despite deception.
Doesn't really mean it wasn't right when you were mine, and I was yours, yeah
Reaffirming the significance of the past relationship.
All the time, I'd catch your eye, and every night
Repeating the idea of catching each other's eyes every night.
We could just lie about it
Reiterating the option of lying about the situation.
Doesn't mean we never had to cry about it
Stating that lying doesn't eliminate the possibility of crying.
Doesn't really mean it wasn't right when you were mine, and I was yours, yeah
Affirming the validity of the past relationship.
All the time, I'd catch your eye, and every night
Highlighting the consistency of catching each other's eyes every night.
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