Lyrics
Listen I've been abusing
Reflecting on past instances of substance abuse
Contemplating reusing
Considering the possibility of using again
Every second persuing to use again but reduce it
Actively pursuing the idea of using but aiming to reduce the impact
Now it's time I diffuse it
Deciding it's time to dissipate this issue
I'm throwing up this confusion
Experiencing internal turmoil and confusion
Still enlisted to use it with every second I'm cooling down
Still involved in using substances, trying to cool down from it
Still happens to come around
Struggling with the recurrence of the urge
Thinking about the situation I'm in now
Contemplating the current circumstance
If you were in it, be consistent raising brows
Noticing that if someone else were in the same situation, eyebrows would be raised due to inconsistency
Won't calm down
Unable to find peace or settle down
See my head is full of everything
Feeling overwhelmed by various thoughts and concerns
Deceptive energy
Surrounded by deceptive or misleading energies
I just wanna truly be one's dream to come true
Desiring to fulfill a genuine aspiration or goal
And to prove
Wanting to prove oneself
I'm acute with all the strength that I keep on pulling through
Despite difficulties, showing strength in persevering
Is dispute
Engaged in a dispute or conflict
I keep turning out accused
Continuously feeling accused or blamed
All I try to do is fight, bitten though
Struggling and fighting despite being hurt
Continue to salute
Continuing to show respect or admiration
But still knocking off my shoes
Despite moving forward, feeling restless or unable to settle
Got nowhere I can snooze
Unable to find a place of comfort or rest
I'm still in my head I'm doomed
Feeling trapped or stuck in one's thoughts
Evil spirits inherit
Sensing malevolent influences or negativity
Got nothing to compare it so I'll continue to wear it
Lacking comparisons but persisting in dealing with it
To this day I'm embarrassed and every minute I perish
Continuously feeling ashamed or embarrassed
Need to find more I can cherish
Desiring to find more things to value or cherish
You'll be my love, my parrot
Describing someone special as a source of love and repetition
Why you become so apparent? Just come on over, share it
Questioning why someone's feelings have become evident and asking them to share
Sometimes when I'm on that shit, I get way more than errant
Admitting that under the influence, behavior strays far from the norm
Don't need no parent this shit individual
Asserting independence and not needing guidance
Critical
Highlighting the importance and seriousness of the situation
Tryna quit this shit has been my ritual
Making efforts to stop the habit, it's a repeated action
Got to the point where I'm thinking this time is pitiful
Feeling like the current situation is pathetic or pitiful
Still to this day I'm needing my damn victuals
Still feeling the need for basic sustenance or essentials
Listen I've been abusing
Reflecting again on past instances of substance abuse
Contemplating reusing
Reconsidering the possibility of using substances again
Every second persuing to use again but reduce it
Continuing the pursuit of using substances but intending to reduce it
Now it's time I diffuse it
Deciding it's time to disperse or resolve this issue
I'm throwing up this confusion
Feeling confused and overwhelmed
Still enlisted to use it with every second I'm cooling down
Still engaged in using substances and trying to calm down from it
Still happens to come around
Struggling with the recurring urge or temptation
Thinking about the situation I'm in now
Reflecting on the current challenging situation
If you were in it, be consistent raising brows
Noticing that if someone else were in the same situation, eyebrows would be raised due to inconsistency
Won't calm down
Unable to find peace or settle down
See my head is full of everything
Feeling overwhelmed by a multitude of thoughts and emotions
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