Lyrics
Looking back for answers to my secrets
Reflecting on past experiences in search of answers to personal mysteries.
Hoping to be blinded by the truth
Hoping to find clarity and truth, even if it is harsh or painful.
I am damned walking through the present
Feeling condemned while navigating the challenges of the present.
I am damned and alone because god forgot me too
Expressing loneliness and abandonment, feeling forgotten by God.
Too often I become detached from myself
Experiencing a frequent sense of detachment from one's own identity.
Forced smiles on the surface of a hollow shell
Putting on fake smiles while feeling emotionally empty.
When every new day comes
Each new day reveals a part of oneself, vulnerable to scrutiny.
A piece of me revealed
Struggling to maintain a facade according to others' expectations.
I hide behind your expectations
Attempting to hide behind societal or external expectations.
But nothing stays concealed
Acknowledging that nothing can remain hidden or concealed forever.
Mistakes I've made always follow me
Past mistakes continue to haunt and affect the present.
but looking back doesn't have to sting
Reflecting on the fact that looking back at mistakes doesn't have to be painful.
I know the reason it hurts at all
Understanding that the pain is a result of letting the past define one's identity.
Is cause' I let my past define me
Acknowledging that personal history shapes the emotional pain felt.
I aim to fight my way out
Expressing determination to overcome challenges and struggles.
Picking at a wound I won't let heal
Refusing to allow emotional wounds to heal, possibly due to a fear of vulnerability.
Praying that comfort will find me
Hoping for comfort and solace to come and alleviate pain.
I aim to fight my way out
Reiterating the determination to fight and overcome difficulties.
Scratchin' at the sore so I can feel
Suffering and intentionally causing emotional pain to feel something.
Praying that comfort will come pouring out
Longing for the release of emotions and the arrival of comfort.
Too often I become detached from myself
Repeating the experience of feeling detached from one's own identity.
Forced smiles on the surface of a hollow shell
Maintaining a facade with forced smiles on the surface of a hollow self.
What good am I if I cannot admit
Questioning one's worth if unable to admit and confront personal changes.
That who I was is not who I am
Acknowledging a transformative shift from past to present self.
Who I was is not who I am
Emphasizing the distinction between the past and present self.
Who I was is not who I am
Reiterating that the current identity differs from the past self.
I aim to fight my way out
Expressing determination to overcome challenges and struggles (repeated).
Picking at a wound I won't let heal
Continuing to avoid healing emotional wounds and facing vulnerability.
Praying that comfort will find me
Hoping for comfort and solace to find and alleviate pain (repeated).
I aim to fight my way out.
Reiterating the determination to fight and overcome difficulties (repeated).
Searchin' for a sign that I'm still here
Searching for a sign of existence and identity amid struggles.
Praying that comfort will come pouring out
Longing for comfort to pour out and bring relief to inner turmoil.
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