Lyrics
I'm glad that you're near
I appreciate your proximity.
And I'm sad that you're here.
I feel sorrowful despite your presence.
That is what it's like to be me.
Describing the emotional complexity of the speaker's state.
I'm glad that you're here
I am happy about your existence here.
And I'm sad that you're near.
I am unhappy about your closeness.
This is what it's like to die alone.
Expressing the feeling of facing death in solitude.
This all hurts so much
The emotional pain is intense.
That I honestly believe
Expressing a belief that the other person is facing difficulty.
You're the one this is hard for.
Suggesting that the speaker thinks the situation is harder for the other person.
I'm bartered tact for wit
The speaker has sacrificed diplomacy for cleverness.
And I've already made up
The speaker has formed numerous narratives about the other person.
A billion stories about you.
[No explicit meaning provided in the lyrics.]
Knee deep in static
The speaker feels overwhelmed or immersed in chaos.
I hear you breaking up,
Perceiving the other person's emotional breakdown.
I'm breaking up,
The speaker and the other person are both experiencing emotional turmoil.
I guess we're breaking up.
Indicating a potential end to the relationship.
You're not the other woman
The other person is not considered an illicit lover.
You're just another (woman).
Viewing the other person as just another romantic interest.
Another hobby for a guy like me.
The other person is seen as an additional pursuit for the speaker.
You're given me a heart like a gun
The other person has a powerful impact on the speaker's emotions.
And I'm so shocked that I've made it through these billion days.
Surprise at enduring a long period of emotional challenges.
I didn't think I could tough it out all those days a billion.
The speaker didn't think they could withstand a billion days of hardship.
So we're growing?
Reflecting on the possibility of personal growth.
I'm sure.
The speaker expresses uncertainty about the growth.
"There's no other I can turn to,
Expressing a limited choice of confidants.
There's no other I can turn to
The speaker has no alternative source of support.
If not you, heart
Addressing the heart as the only entity the speaker can trust.
Who else can I believe?"
The speaker questions where else they can place their trust.
I hope you enjoy dying alone.
Expressing a desire for the other person to experience solitude.
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