Lyrics
I'm just hiding from emotion
I'm avoiding expressing my emotions
To afraid that I would lose you
Fearful of losing you
My heart would be so broken
Fearing a heartbreak
But maybe that's what I need
Considering that heartbreak might be necessary
Now I'm closing the door
Closing myself off emotionally
Cause the one I love most
The person I love is unaware of my feelings
Doesn't know what I'm feeling
Lost in contemplation
And I'm flowing in thoughts
Engulfed in deep thoughts
Through a river that's lost
Metaphorically navigating a lost river
Is this all my fault?
Questioning personal responsibility
All the times I've waited up for you
Reflecting on times spent waiting for the person
(You never cared about me)
Feeling neglected
My smiles lying on your backseat
Expressing hidden emotions through a smile left behind
(Did you ever care about me?)
Questioning the other person's concern
I tried to be happy
Struggling to maintain happiness
But I don't wanna be someone else
Refusing to be someone else
I need to be honest with my self
Acknowledging the need for self-honesty
I'd be happier without you
Believing personal happiness lies without the other person
Achieve everything I want too
Aspiring to achieve personal goals independently
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
Expressing willingness to do anything
I wish it was all that easy
Recognizing the complexity of the situation
Now I'm slamming the door
Emotionally distancing by slamming the door
Cause the girl I love most
The person I love remains unaware of my feelings
Doesn't know what I'm feeling
Lost in contemplation once again
And I'm flowing in thoughts
Continuing to navigate the metaphorical lost river
Through a river that's lost
Questioning personal responsibility once more
Is this all my fault?
Reflecting on past times of waiting for the person
All the times I've waited up for you
Feeling neglected and unimportant
(You never cared about me)
Smiles left behind as a symbol of emotional expression
My smiles lying on your backseat
Continued doubt about the other person's care
(Did you ever care about me?)
Questioning the depth of the other person's feelings
I tried to be happy
Struggling to find happiness authentically
But I don't wanna be someone else
Insistence on personal authenticity
I need to be honest with my self
Recognizing the need for self-honesty once again
You don't care about me
Emphasizing the perceived lack of care from the other person
You don't care about me
Reiterating the lack of care in a repeated manner
You don't care about me
Final emphasis on the perceived lack of care
No you don't
Confirmation of the perceived lack of care
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