SMRT
Emotional Turmoil: A Journey through Self-Destruction
Lyrics
I don't know, it's like I just can't help it.
I struggle to control my actions or impulses.
Looks like I'm at it again.
I find myself repeating a behavior or pattern.
Don't even know if I can feel sincerely.
I am uncertain if I can genuinely experience emotions.
Think my emotions are dead and I hate it.
I feel emotionally numb, and I dislike this state.
So if you want to see what I see,
If you want to understand my perspective,
I can drag you along. We'd be high for a while.
I can show you, and we could have enjoyable moments.
You will hate me like I hate me too.
You will dislike me as much as I dislike myself.
This isn't the first time that I tried,
I've attempted similar things before,
but it's just out of reach
but they always seem just out of reach.
Now I'm starting to see
Now I'm gaining insight into my situation.
I'm a trainwreck with a habit,
I am a mess with a recurring behavior,
but I want to believe there's some good left in me.
yet I want to believe there's goodness within me.
Don't waste your time. I'm bad news and I like it.
Don't invest time in me; I enjoy being a troublemaker.
I'd ruin your life if you hold on.
If you stay close, I'll negatively impact your life.
There must be a reason that it always ends like this.
There seems to be a recurring cause for these endings.
I go cold. I go ghost and I stop giving a shit.
I become emotionally distant and stop caring.
There must be something. I wish I knew what.
There must be a reason for my behavior that I wish I knew.
You'll wish you never wasted your time on us.
You'll regret investing time in me.
But if you want to feel what I feel,
If you want to experience what I'm going through,
I can give you a taste. You'd have the time of your life
I can share it with you, and it might be enjoyable.
You will hate me like I hate me. I can promise you.
You will dislike me just as I dislike myself; that's certain.
I've got what's coming to me.
I anticipate facing the consequences of my actions.
It's killing me.
The situation is emotionally distressing for me.
She's killing me.
A female figure is causing harm or distress to me.
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