Lover's Dream
Unraveling a Lover's Dream: Hemans Erilia's Heartfelt Odyssey
Lyrics
They said "don't make him more special than he is"
There were warnings not to exaggerate his importance.
But I'm still writing you into my love stories
Despite the advice, the person continues to include them in their romantic narratives.
Trying to be that manic pixie dream
Attempting to embody the whimsical, quirky character often depicted in movies (Manic Pixie Dream).
That you wanted me to be
Trying to fulfill the persona the person desired.
Made a flower crown out of your red flags
Creating something beautiful out of the warning signs or flaws.
Thought that I would look better in this fallen kingdom
Believing that being in a problematic situation with them would improve the person.
Brick by brick I built from my heart to you
Metaphorically constructing a path from their emotions to the person.
That you torn apart and broke in two
The person dismantled the path, causing deep emotional hurt.
While you smiled and said
While causing pain, the person offered reassurance of not being left alone.
"You won't be alone"
Questioning if the person's actions caused their own heartache.
Had I broken my own heart?
Considering if the person's departure led to heartbreak.
Even if you're the one to part
Wondering if they fell for an illusion, not a real person.
Had I fallen for someone
Expressing intimacy while feeling trapped or confined.
That never existed at all?
Living in an idealized romantic state, despite underlying issues.
I was holding you close
Feeling a strong connection, yet in a vulnerable state.
Like a bottled up rose
Comparing oneself to a beautiful yet confined flower.
I was living a lover's dream
Experiencing an illusion of a perfect romantic relationship.
Baby you had loved the way you held me captive
The person enjoyed having control over the speaker.
Knowing you had me under your spell
Awareness of being under the person's influence and power.
Such a shame, that when I called to you three times
Feeling alone despite reaching out multiple times.
I'm the only one here when the bell chimes
Realization that they're alone despite seeking connection.
Such a shame
Expressing regret for not being able to claim the person as theirs.
I never could call you mine
Reflecting on causing their own heartache.
Had I broken my own heart?
Questioning self-blame for the heartbreak.
Even if you're the one to part
Considering the possibility of self-inflicted pain despite the person's departure.
Had I fallen for someone
Wondering if the attraction was towards an illusion.
That never existed at all?
Feeling emotionally connected while realizing it might not have been real.
I was holding you close
Describing a relationship where one feels confined yet connected.
Like a bottled up rose
Comparing oneself to a fragile, vulnerable object.
I was living a lover's dream
Living in a romanticized world despite underlying issues.
Swear I didn't care if you heard this
Claiming indifference but hoping for understanding.
But I'm still on my own, hoping it hits home
Expressing continued longing for the person to understand.
Now I'm just another name on your list
Feeling reduced to just a name in the person's life story.
The next story with a twist
Expecting the person to move on to the next relationship with a twist or change.
Had I broken my own heart
Questioning if their own actions caused the heartbreak.
Even if you're the one to part
Considering responsibility for the pain despite the person leaving.
All the signs were there
Acknowledging the presence of warning signs, despite ignoring them.
Even if I was too desperate to care
Admitting to being too desperate to notice the signs.
Guess I fell for someone
Realization that the attraction was towards an illusion.
That never existed at all
Confirming that the person never truly existed as imagined.
No he never existed at all
Reiterating the non-existence of the imagined ideal person.
No he never existed
Stating again that the person was never real.
I was holding you close
Describing a fragile, dying romantic connection.
Like a wilting rose
Comparing oneself to a dying or fading rose.
I was living a lover's dream
Living in a romanticized state despite the impending end of
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