Lyrics
Only happy
Feeling happy only
When I keep my head down
When keeping the head down
Come up for air
Coming up for air to assess current situation
To see where I'm at now
Reflecting on one's current position
What'd you expect
Questioning others' expectations
Stuck where I started
Feeling stuck at the starting point
Why even bother
Questioning the significance of effort
Making a promise
Making promises seems futile
I could lie
Considering the option of deception
And tell myself
Lying to oneself for comfort
I've never tried
Denying past attempts
Easier this way
Choosing an easier path through self-deception
I'll tell myself a lie
Telling oneself a convenient lie
I know we've been here before
Recognizing a repetitive situation
Said next time I'd love me more
Promising self-love in the future
I'm starting to get real bored
Expressing boredom with the current state
Finding myself
Searching for identity
Do they all like me more
Questioning others' perception of oneself
Deleting posts on the floor
Deleting past expressions of self
I'm starting to get real bored
Feeling increasingly bored with oneself
Of myself
Expressing weariness with one's own identity
I'm getting tired
Feeling tired and left behind
Of being the one that's left behind
Questioning the morality of this feeling
Is it a crime
Observing life passing by
Watching the world just pass me by
Reflecting on the consequences of being passive
I could turn my eyes away
Considering the option to avoid pain
And never cry
Choosing emotional numbness
Passing by the exit lane
Passing by opportunities for change
I'm paralyzed
Feeling unable to move
I know we've been here before
Recognizing a repeated pattern
Said next time I'd love me more
Promising increased self-love in the future
I'm starting to get real bored
Expressing growing boredom with oneself
Finding myself
Continued search for identity
Do they all like me more
Concern about others' perception
Deleting posts on the floor
Deleting past expressions of self-repeatedly
I'm starting to get real bored
Intensifying boredom with oneself
Of myself
Expressing dissatisfaction with self
It's all the same
Feeling a sense of monotony
I'm getting bored of myself
Increasing weariness with oneself
Nothing will change
Expecting no change in the future
I'm getting bored of myself
Continued weariness with oneself
I'm getting bored of myself
Reiterating growing boredom with oneself
What's it feel like to be ok
Curiosity about the feeling of being okay
Need parts to fix old damage
Recognition of the need for healing
I know we've been here before
Remembering a similar situation
Said next time I'd love me more
Reiterating the promise of increased self-love
I'm starting to get real bored
Expressing heightened boredom with oneself
Finding myself
Continued search for identity
Do they all like me more
Concern about others' perception
Deleting posts on the floor
Repeating the act of deleting past expressions
I'm starting to get real bored
Further intensifying boredom with oneself
Of myself
Expressing a deep dissatisfaction with self
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