Misconceptions
Navigating Self-Doubt: A Heartfelt Reflection on Life's Struggles
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I can only speak on matters of my own heart
I can only express my feelings and experiences.
The world I know will disappear
The familiar world around me is fading or changing.
Have I done enough to warrant this life
Am I worthy of the life I have; have I done what's needed?
Is it all enough for them
Is my effort sufficient for others?
Will I look back and see I was a failure
Fearing I will see myself as a failure in hindsight.
A disappointing waste
Feeling like I've wasted opportunities and disappointed.
I hope you see with all my heart I truly care
I genuinely care deeply, despite struggles.
I push and pull searching for every answer
Searching intensively for solutions and understanding.
Playing a game I can never win
Engaged in a futile struggle, unable to win.
I pour everything I have in this life
Investing all I have into my life.
But it seems its never enough
Despite my efforts, it often feels insufficient.
They deserve the world
Others deserve the best, but I fall short.
but I fall short every single time
Consistently failing to meet expectations.
Everyday I fight with this thought
Every day, grappling with self-doubt.
God I hope I don't fuck this up
Hoping not to make crucial mistakes.
I constantly battle this misconception
Engaged in an ongoing struggle with misconceptions.
That everything I do is not enough
Feeling that everything I do falls short.
I know I do my best and try to do what's right
Acknowledging my best efforts and intent to do right.
But this feeling haunts me every fucking day
Anxiety and doubt persist every day.
I lay awake at night
Nightmares keeping me awake, contemplating mistakes.
Tossing and turning from recurring nightmares
Struggling with recurring doubts and fears.
Why cant I see that this thought of self doubt is tearing me apart
Realizing that self-doubt is causing internal turmoil.
There's no give and take
There's no compromise, only uncertainty.
nothing in between
No middle ground, only extremes.
I hope I don't let them down
Fear of disappointing those I care about.
When I die
Contemplating the impact of my life after death.
And 6 feet in the ground
Considering the finality of life, buried six feet under.
Will this have been enough for you
Questioning if my efforts will be deemed sufficient.
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