You Carry a Heavy Burden
Embracing Change: A Journey Through Life's Weight
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I hold my life in my hands
I feel responsible for my own life.
But cling to branches that break under the weight of mistakes
I rely on things that cannot support me, leading to failure due to past errors.
I tried to hide behind pain
I attempted to mask my problems by using pain as a shield.
Scabs felt like badges but scars bring me nothing but shame
Temporary solutions (scabs) only brought shame through permanent marks (scars).
Use me up, throw me away
I was used and discarded, but I kept returning.
I was still back the next day
Despite being used repeatedly, I came back for more.
I needed an escape
I sought a way out of my situation.
I finally made a change
I eventually made a significant change in my life.
Now language hides the perfect crime
I use language to conceal my wrongdoing.
But complications still arise
Despite efforts to cover up, complications persist.
She cries as worlds collide
Someone close to me is distressed as different aspects of my life clash.
I think my world has died and
I feel like my world, as I knew it, has ended.
The bright side is still where the shade resides and
Positivity is where negativity thrives, and I've internalized this negativity.
That shade has all been internalized and
The negativity has become a part of me.
My fear of consuming has become an all-consuming fear
My fear of consuming (things, emotions, situations) has become my predominant fear.
Just when it starts to go away, I do my best to keep it here
Despite the fear receding, I consciously try to maintain it.
And I'm still asleep at the wheel tonight
I am metaphorically unaware and passive in my life's direction.
And everybody has passed me by
Others have moved forward while I've remained stagnant.
But if I'm sleeping through the sunrise
I'm not actively engaging with life's positive moments.
At least I'm sleeping through the sunset too
Even though I'm missing out on life's beauty, I'm also missing its hardships.
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