Lyrics
I try, I try to feel alive
I make an effort to experience vitality.
But it's not hard to deny
However, it's easy to refuse or reject.
That I've got a lust for life
I have a strong desire for life.
Every time I open my eyes
Whenever I open my eyes.
(I know) All that I need to get by
I understand everything necessary for survival.
(I know) But it's getting harder every time
Despite knowing, it becomes more challenging.
(Oh no) Wonder what I do it all for
Expressing uncertainty about the purpose of it all.
Wish I could let it go
Desire to release or detach from something.
I can't hold myself much longer
Feeling unable to endure much longer.
When I'm starting to wonder
Questioning my mental stability.
If I am sane at all
Uncertainty about lasting through the night.
Can I last another night?
Experiencing bodily reactions, expressing curiosity.
Body sighs, I'm curious
Choosing to stay alive.
I think I'll stay alive
Repeated desire to survive despite challenges.
Again, I drift away again
Continuously drifting away mentally.
Behind bars inside my head
Feeling confined within my thoughts.
Watching myself smile at them
Observing myself pretending happiness.
While my self is miles away
Feeling detached from my true self.
(I know) Everything gets better with time
Belief that time improves everything.
(I know) But why do I have to survive?
Questioning the necessity of survival.
(Oh no) Wonder what living feels like
Curiosity about the essence of living.
Wish I could get to know
Desire to understand life better.
I can't hold myself much longer
Feeling incapable of enduring much longer.
When I'm starting to wonder
Questioning mental stability again.
If I am sane at all
Uncertain about lasting through another night.
Can I last another night?
Experiencing bodily reactions, expressing curiosity (repeated).
Body sighs, I'm curious
Choosing to stay alive (repeated).
I think I'll stay alive
Repeated desire to survive despite challenges (repeated).
#INSTRUMENTAL
Instrumental break.
When did it get this far?
Reflection on how the situation has progressed.
I thought I loved me all
Previously believed I loved myself entirely.
Sometimes love's not enough
Realization that sometimes love isn't sufficient.
For the feeling of not enough
Inadequacy and a sense of insufficiency.
I can't hold myself much longer
Feeling incapable of enduring much longer (repeated).
When I'm starting to wonder
Questioning mental stability again (repeated).
If I am sane at all
Uncertain about lasting through another night (repeated).
Can I last another night?
Experiencing bodily reactions, expressing curiosity (repeated).
Body sighs, I'm curious
Choosing to stay alive (repeated).
I think I'll stay alive
Final affirmation of the decision to stay alive (repeated).
Comment