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I threw my love down the drain just to see it shrink
I discarded my love intentionally to witness its diminishment.
I sabotage myself I need to see a shrink
I undermine myself and feel the need for psychological help.
The one I have man I think I got her stumped
The person I'm involved with seems perplexed by me.
These days the raz the only things to get me pumped and I was
Lately, excitement only comes from substances, indicating a lack of stimulation.
Counting threads cus I'm scared to tie the knot
Fearing commitment, I scrutinize details before committing.
I studied writing but I might've lost the plot
Although I studied writing, I may have lost track of the storyline.
And I've been telling people that it's time to shoot their shot
Encouraging others to take their chances, while hiding my own insecurities.
Imagine if these people really knew about the things I'm not
Imagining people discovering my hidden flaws and imperfections.
I know I can take it
Confident in enduring difficulties.
I just need some time to clear my head
Seeking time to clear thoughts and emotions.
Love is bittersweet to taste but you know its energy (consume everything)
Love brings mixed emotions but holds immense power.
Drinking from the bottle by the beach my words will slur away
Drinking alcohol by the sea, causing speech to become unclear.
Bittersweet all day my smile will fade away
Feeling bittersweet throughout the day, masking genuine emotions with a smile.
And it's like I'm always dissatisfied
Consistently feeling dissatisfied.
I'm too needy
Admitting to being too reliant on others.
I want the comfort and the freedom cus I'm greedy
Desiring both comfort and freedom due to personal greed.
And it was easy to take when I needed you
Once easy to take advantage of, now struggling without.
The girl with the most cake and I'm tryna eat it too
Wanting everything, including what's unattainable.
Depleted you with no returns or favours
Drained someone without reciprocation.
So life is too short for one flavour
Life is too brief for monotony.
An X by my name for the bad behaviour
Marked for past misdeeds.
My ex by my side and I never felt safer
Found comfort in the past, but safety can stifle.
But safe can suffocate and sometimes love can turn to hate
Love can transform into hate, prompting departure.
I couldn't stay for that
Chose to leave despite memories.
And its no regrets only reflections
Regrets absent, only introspection.
When wants and needs meet at intersections
Conflicting desires and necessities.
Not to mention I abandon all my duties
Abandoned responsibilities.
I'm empty as I fill my bed up with some cuties
Feeling hollow despite temporary company.
Even though they don't make the bed like you did
Comparing new relationships to past experiences.
It's not wrong it's just a different execution
Accepting different approaches without judgment.
I know I can take it
Confident in enduring difficulties.
I just need some time to clear my head
Seeking time to clear thoughts and emotions.
Love is bittersweet to taste but you know its energy (consume everything)
Love brings mixed emotions but holds immense power.
Drinking from the bottle by the beach my words will slur away
Drinking alcohol by the sea, causing speech to become unclear.
Bittersweet all day my smile will fade away
Feeling bittersweet throughout the day, masking genuine emotions with a smile.
It's bittersweet the love you give to me
Love given is both pleasurable and painful.
I got everything I need and nothing you think I want
I possess necessities but lack what others assume I desire.
You wanna clearly see what's inside of me
Desiring to be understood at a deeper level.
Peel the skin off of my fruit embrace my youth
Revealing vulnerability and embracing youth.
Waiting for payday though it was yesterday
Waiting for delayed rewards, reflecting on missed opportunities.
Sky looks amazing wish I could dive in it, I could dive it in
Longing for freedom and escape from current circumstances.
I could find a lie in it
Skeptical, looking for deceit even in beauty.
Don't mean to be rude but I'm in the mood to go find a place to be alone with you
Seeking privacy to connect intimately.
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