Never Have I Ever
Unraveling Desires: A Journey through Love's Wild Carousel
Lyrics
It's never just taking a train
Embarking on a journey is more than a physical act.
There are so many feelings coming with me
Various emotions accompany the journey.
It's never just taking a train
Reiteration that a train ride holds deeper significance.
One of us is lying
Someone is not truthful.
Or maybe it's both
Possibly both individuals are dishonest.
Ineptly I'm trying
Struggling inadequately to address the situation.
Trying to prevent you from unravelling the truth
Attempting to prevent the revelation of the truth.
I know that it's coming
Awareness that a significant event is approaching.
Just please not today
Requesting the event not to occur today.
But no-ones denying
Acknowledging the undeniable truth.
That I hold on a little tighter each time that I stay
Expressing a heightened sense of attachment.
Never have I ever let it go this far
Unprecedentedly allowing a situation to escalate.
You're pulling out the very wildest card in my repertoire
Confronting a challenging aspect of oneself.
A sucker for self-sabotage
Admitting a weakness for self-destructive behavior.
Never have I ever gone this far
Venturing into unfamiliar emotional territory.
I'm letting you push me
Permitting someone to influence and manipulate.
But where does it end
Questioning the limits of such influence.
The yielding comes easy
Easy surrender to external pressures.
Now this wild behaviour is scaring my friends
Alarming others with unpredictable actions.
I paint on a brave face
Pretending to be strong despite internal struggles.
To enter the fray
Entering into challenging situations bravely.
And yeah I'm a strong-minded woman
Self-identifying as a strong-minded woman.
Destroying myself just to be loved just to be loved
Destructive behavior driven by a desire for love.
So my therapist says
Referencing advice from a therapist.
Never did I not expect to end up here
Surprised by the unexpected turn of events.
We better let our vile desires unwind
Suggesting the need to let go of harmful desires.
One last final time
Contemplating a final confession and disappearance.
Come clean and then just disappear
Choosing honesty and subsequent withdrawal.
Trying to stray but I want nobody else
Struggling to resist temptation and stay loyal.
While I'm tied up on
Experiencing challenges while being tied to a difficult situation.
A ride through hell on your carousel
Enduring a tumultuous journey symbolized by a carousel.
I'll never be loving myself
Acknowledging difficulty in self-love.
Never have I ever gone this far
Reiteration of the unprecedented depth of the situation.
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