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Memories like picture books in my mind
Recollections akin to vivid imagery in my mind
Pockets of time I can’t look back on
Segments of time that I cannot revisit
Can’t unfold em can’t unpack em
Unable to unfurl or comprehend them
Looking for something better to believe in
Seeking something more profound to have faith in
God is good, but i’m still grieving
Acknowledging the goodness of God while still in mourning
We got time, we got seasons
We possess time and experience different phases in life
Render and surrender any bits
Letting go and giving up any remnants
I burned down your crucifix
Expressing a destructive act toward a symbol of faith
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Inadequate in negotiation, forcing myself to recall
Open heart open fist, made weapons out of it
Using vulnerability and strength to create defenses
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Inept at bargaining, forcing memory recall
Did you ever love me at all?
Questioning past affection received
I don’t know your face anymore
Unfamiliarity with your visage
I don’t think I ever did in the first place
Doubtful if genuine feelings existed initially
But you held yourself to me like a gun
Describing the connection as potentially dangerous
Break like glass when I fall
Fragile and shatter when faced with adversity
Livin’ for your love like a dog
Living solely for affection like a loyal but unreciprocated dog
Never had the grace to give me any mercy
No willingness shown to offer kindness or forgiveness
But you held yourself to me
Yet tightly connected to me despite it
Did I lose my glow?
Questioning if I lost my inner radiance
I can’t trace myself
Unable to recognize my own identity
Back to who I was when we were strangers
Unable to revert to my former self when we were strangers
Nothing feels like home
Nowhere feels familiar or comforting
But nothin’s ever felt like home to me
Yet, nothing has felt like home before
Who am I supposed to be ?
Uncertain about my expected persona
Who am I supposed to be ?
Repeating the uncertainty of self
Render and surrender any bits
Letting go and giving up any remnants
I burned down your crucifix
Expressing a destructive act toward a symbol of faith
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Inadequate in negotiation, forcing myself to recall
Open heart open fist, made weapons out of it
Using vulnerability and strength to create defenses
Im so shit at bargaining I make myself remember
Inept at bargaining, forcing memory recall
Did you ever love me at all?
Questioning past affection received
I don’t know your face anymore
Unfamiliarity with your visage
I don’t think I ever did in the first place
Doubtful if genuine feelings existed initially
But you held yourself to me like a gun
Describing the connection as potentially dangerous
Break like glass when I fall
Fragile and shatter when faced with adversity
Livin’ for your love like a dog
Living solely for affection like a loyal but unreciprocated dog
Never had the grace to give me any mercy
No willingness shown to offer kindness or forgiveness
But you held yourself to me
Yet tightly connected to me despite it
You held yourself to me
Emphasizing the connection between us
Did you ever love me at all?
Questioning past affection received
I don’t know your face anymore
Unfamiliarity with your visage
I don’t think I ever did in the first place
Doubtful if genuine feelings existed initially
But you held yourself to me
Describing
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