Sky's Rain
Embracing Shadows: Janel Nabong's Poetic Journey Through Life's Heavy Air
Lyrics
I've come to know
I have gained understanding or familiarity.
What's in control
Acknowledging what is under command or influence.
Say, when I'm gone
Expressing concern about what happens when absent.
Please bring me back home
Plea to be brought back home in such a situation.
I’ve got a hold
Having control over one's inner darkness or flaws.
On my shadows
Acknowledging and confronting personal shadows.
But I fear of what tomorrow
Apprehension about the uncertainties of the future.
Brings, though my soft skin has become hardened
Despite challenges, the speaker has toughened emotionally.
Though all my walls are up, they guard and defend
Even with protective barriers, vulnerability exists.
Though I say I am strong, I need no one
Claiming strength but secretly desiring connection.
This tear in my heart makes it hard to go on
Inner emotional pain hindering progress.
Why is this air so heavy, drowning me
Sense of suffocation and burden in the environment.
Why is this world so blurry, can't even see
Perception of the world as unclear and confusing.
Though I am smiling, I still clench my jaws
Masking true feelings behind a smiling facade.
Though I am free to live, sky's rain will still fall
Freedom exists, but challenges persist (symbolized by sky's rain).
Cover, cover
Repetition of "cover" suggests a desire for protection.
Cover over me
Seeking shelter or refuge from difficulties.
Silent expectations
Unspoken hopes from others without verbalizing.
Violent conversations
Intense and possibly aggressive dialogues.
No appreciation
Lack of recognition or gratitude for efforts.
Though I have got a hold
Reiteration of control over personal flaws or struggles.
On my shadows
Similar to line 6, addressing inner struggles.
I fear of what tomorrow
Concern about the uncertainties of the future (repeated theme).
Brings, though my soft skin has become hardened
Emotional toughness despite challenges (repeated theme).
Though all my walls are up, they guard and defend
Despite defenses, vulnerability remains (repeated theme).
Though I say I am strong, I need no one
Contradiction between claimed strength and need for others.
This tear in my heart makes it hard to go on
Internal pain affecting the ability to move forward (repeated theme).
Why is this air so heavy, drowning me
Feelings of suffocation and heaviness in the air (repeated theme).
Why is this world so blurry, can't even see
Perception of a blurred and unclear world (repeated theme).
Though I am smiling, I still clench my jaws
Contrast between outward appearance and inner tension (repeated theme).
Though I am free to live, sky's rain will still fall
Despite freedom, challenges persist (repeated theme).
So I guess I’ll lie down and close my eyes
Choosing to withdraw and escape from the difficulties.
Start to let go cuz I am feeling so tired
Fatigue leading to a willingness to release control.
Please help me when
Seeking assistance during moments of perceived absence.
It seems like I am gone
Reiteration of the need for help in times of emotional distance.
Please help me
An earnest plea for support.
Will you help bring me back home
Request for assistance in returning to a place of comfort.
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