Lyrics
Don't wanna open my eyes
Expressing reluctance to face reality or a situation.
Keep me glued to the bed
Desire to remain in bed, avoiding the challenges of the day.
'Cause what can hurt me then: nothing can
Avoiding vulnerability, believing nothing can harm when eyes are closed.
Don't worry, I'm just tired
Assuring others that the weariness is just physical exhaustion.
So tired
Emphasizing extreme fatigue.
And I threw my drink at my mirror
Symbolic act of frustration or dissatisfaction with self-image.
Was never satisfied with what I saw
Long-standing dissatisfaction with personal appearance.
But now I don't know what to do
Feeling lost and uncertain about how to address personal issues.
With the stains on my walls
Contemplating and dealing with visible emotional "stains" or struggles.
I'm losing my mind
Indicating a mental struggle or emotional breakdown.
Feel so confined
Expressing a sense of confinement and mental distress.
Guess I forget I have somebody to call
Forgetting the availability of emotional support from someone close.
When my only sight is these four walls
Feeling trapped within the confines of one's own thoughts.
Nothing to give
Sense of emptiness or lack of resources to offer.
Scared if I take, I'll take it all
Fear of taking from others, afraid it might lead to taking everything.
If you wanna talk about give and take
Doubting personal worth or ability to contribute in relationships.
I don't think I'd have anything anyways
Believing there is nothing substantial to offer in any exchange.
But that's on me for reaching out
Acknowledging personal responsibility for reaching out too late.
When I know it's too late
Realizing the futility of seeking help when it's too far gone.
Can't seem to find the use in
Questioning the value or purpose of receiving assistance.
Having a helping hand
Rejecting dependence on others as an undesirable state.
Dependence is not what I seek
Expressing the desire to face the consequences of one's actions.
What I sow I'll continue to reap
Commitment to experiencing the results of personal choices.
Don't wanna waste someone's time
Avoiding causing inconvenience or burdening others with one's problems.
Make them compromise for me
Concern for not wanting others to sacrifice or compromise for the speaker.
Is my mama on edge
Ruminating on the possibility of resembling or inheriting traits from the mother.
Because I might just be like her
Speculating on the mother's emotional state and its impact on the speaker.
Is she scared to admit
Considering the mother's reluctance to acknowledge shared challenges.
That it might just be my turn
Contemplating the inevitability of facing similar challenges.
And I'm told "It's alright to cry, just pick yourself up again"
Recalling advice to cope with emotions but struggling to implement it.
But you can't blame me
Asserting personal agency in seeking experiences, even if challenging.
For wanting to know what it's like
Expressing curiosity about the experience of overcoming challenges.
No you can't blame me
Defending the desire to explore challenging experiences.
For wanting to know what it's like up the stairs
Expressing curiosity or a yearning to understand what lies beyond current struggles.
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