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When I was a kid
Reflecting on childhood experiences
Most of the learning I did
Learning from various sources
Was watching my dad
Observing father's actions
Loving my mom
Witnessing love towards mother
Coming home pissed
Father returning home angry from work
From hating his job
Expressing dissatisfaction with his job
And clenching his fist
Showcasing frustration through clenched fists
With prayers in his palms
Praying with folded hands for a better outcome
That I never heard
Unheard prayers from the father
Yeah
Emphasizing the unheard prayers
That I never heard
-I never got to read what his lips would bleed into his fingers
Unable to understand father's unspoken words
I never got to see what the meaning in his reasons was
Questioning the reasons behind father's actions
But he gripped them tight into mine
Feeling the love through physical touch
And my sister's hands with love
-All tough and calloused up
-That grip never told a lie
Emphasizing the honesty in the father's touch
Now I'm just trying to read his wise
Seeking wisdom from father's experiences
In my palm lines and it goes a little like
Looking for guidance in his own life
It's not about a long life
Philosophy on life: living, giving, forgiveness, and resilience
It's about a lot of living
-It's about giving and being forgiven
-Cause you're gonna fuck up sometimes
-You're gonna fall hard but you better keep trying
-It's not about dollars and dimes or being right
-Or even writing in rhyme
-It's about standing taller with time
-Being sight for the blind
Being a positive force in difficult times
A light in the times that night seems to swallow the sun
-Never fear being the only one for a cause
-In the end it's just you and God
-But here and now you make your home
Creating a home, friendships, and art
You make your friends and you make your art
-Better make it count
-Better live it all cause your days are numbered
Awareness of the limited time in life
And they're running out
-Yeah, they're running out
-And I grasp his lessons in my fingers
Grasping life's lessons and counting blessings
Counting my blessings and all of the reasons
-For never second guessing and always believing
-But I'm wondering if I'll ever believe him
Questioning one's own beliefs and identity
Or if I'll just be him because it's the same
-What we're bleeding
Reflecting on existential questions
These questions are seething like
-Is fate in my genes or she chained to my freedom
Contemplating the worth of existence
Is being worth all of the thinking
-The price of the needing
-The vices and grieving
Reflecting on vices, grief, and life's purpose
What is the point
-Where is your voice
-In all of this noise I got gun shot thoughts
Struggling with overwhelming thoughts and seeking God
Like I'm just lost
-I walk this rock and look for God
-And I wish you were here to tell me
Longing for father's guidance in life decisions
Whether or not I'm doing it right
-Or wasting my time, Dad
-But I guess it goes on
Acceptance of life's continuity
And it goes on and it goes on
-I put my face into my palms
Symbolic action of seeking guidance through palms
Trying to taste a sinner's psalms
-And in sweat in salt I feel your words
-Yeah, I hear your voice
Feeling the influence of the father's words and voice
It's not about winning your fights
Facing challenges with determination
It's all of your might against the world
-When it tries to take you alive
Understanding the importance of seeking help
It's about needing help and knowing it
-If you're bleeding out you're showing it
-If you're believing now just go with it
-Cause you're never gonna know unless you try
Encouraging taking risks and embracing life's uncertainties
Everything that lives is gonna die
-Everyone that loves you is gonna lie
-Now you can despise and you can just cry about it
Choosing to express rather than dwell on negative emotions
Or you can straighten your spine up and just write about it
-You can spend your life chasing your pride
Contrasting pride with humility and openness
Or you can learn to listen and love like a child
-Cracking a smile as moments slip by you
Appreciating moments and maintaining inner fire
Never looking behind you
-Never losing your fire
-Just keep paving your way
Continuing personal growth and expressing gratitude
Trying to be a better man than you were yesterday
-And when you look down at your hands
-Remember to say grace
-And remember to give thanks
-Because this is brutally beautiful
Acknowledging the beauty in life's challenges
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