Lyrics
I took a train out to my city
Taking a train to the city, setting the stage for introspection.
To tell my therapist my great story of my life
Sharing life's story with the therapist, seeking guidance or understanding.
She laughs concerned
The therapist expresses a mix of amusement and concern.
She said I'm glad you reached out
Therapist is glad for the communication, indicating a positive step.
At least I have
Recognition of having received prescribed medication (diazepam).
Prescribed diazepam now
Expressing a need to calm down, possibly due to inner turmoil.
Oh god knows I need to calm down
Acknowledging the necessity of calming down.
Ah but I can't come down
Despite the need, unable to come down or find tranquility.
World moving at the speed of light
Observation of a fast-paced world, possibly contributing to stress.
Here I'm hanging on for dear life
Struggling to hold on to life, metaphorically hanging by a thread.
Everybody's got it goin on
Acknowledging that everyone seems to have their lives together.
But still I gotta figure out self love
Despite appearances, grappling with the challenge of understanding and practicing self-love.
And how to survive myself
Highlighting the struggle to survive one's own thoughts and emotions.
And the side of me that gives in to negative shit
Recognizing a vulnerable side succumbing to negativity.
Oh nothing can fix me ah
An acknowledgment that external solutions cannot fix internal issues.
Will I ever get enough self love?
Pondering whether there will ever be enough self-love.
I've been a sad underachiever
Admitting to being a underachiever with a history of sadness.
I'm scared of failure so for that I run and hide
Fear of failure leading to a tendency to avoid challenges.
Wasted potential
Reflecting on wasted potential that could have been remarkable.
Could've been monumental
An acknowledgement of the could-have-been greatness.
Oh so special
Emphasizing the potential for being special, but feeling otherwise.
But I'm not fucking special
An outright denial of being special despite the potential.
Oh god knows I need to calm down
Reiterating the need to calm down in the face of overwhelming emotions.
Ah but I can't come down
Despite the need, unable to find a state of calmness.
World moving at the speed of light
Reiteration of the fast-paced nature of the world.
Here I'm hanging on for dear life
Continuing to hold on to life, possibly indicating resilience.
Everybody's got it goin on
Observing that everyone seems to be progressing in life.
But still I gotta figure out self love
Despite external success, the internal struggle with self-love persists.
And how to survive myself
The ongoing battle to survive one's own negative tendencies.
And the side of me that gives in to negative shit
Acknowledging vulnerability to negative thoughts and behaviors.
Oh nothing can fix me ah
Emphasizing that external solutions cannot fully address internal struggles.
Will I ever get enough self love?
Pondering the possibility of attaining sufficient self-love.
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