Easy on Me
Navigating Shadows: Jesse Ray Smith's Reflections on Struggle and Loss
Lyrics
I’ve become a stranger in the prison of my own skin
I feel like a stranger trapped within my own body and emotions.
Watching you light up like a Christmas tree on the hottest day in spring
Observing you being happy and vibrant is surprising, like seeing Christmas lights on the hottest spring day.
You were the resolution in the year of the black cat that I couldn’t keep
You were the solution in a difficult time, but I couldn't keep you around.
Making out like a bandit selling candles from your mansion under the sea
You thrived while I struggled, metaphorically selling candles from your luxurious dwelling beneath the sea.
Yea maybe I’ve become a little bit jealous of the way you’ve made out in your life
I'm envious of the success and happiness you've found in your life.
I thought the words you spoke under the oath of blood bound us to our never-ending fight
I believed the promises you made, thinking they bound us in an eternal commitment.
And I know we’re grown-ups and we’re supposed to be able to take it all in stride
Despite being adults, it's challenging to handle everything calmly and maturely.
But I’m a little bit uneasy about tonight
Feeling uneasy about the current situation.
Yea I’m a little bit uneasy about tonight
Reiterating uneasiness about the present moment.
Under the pressure of living up to the man that you want me to be
Struggling under the pressure to meet the expectations of the person you want me to become.
I guess I lost my sense of direction and turned my back on the things that mattered to me
I lost my way and abandoned things that were once important to me.
You took it all on the chin, looking back you were my only friend
You endured difficulties for me, and looking back, you were my only true friend.
So, that’s what I wanted to tell you tonight, I wanted to look you in the eye
Expressing the desire to share something important face to face.
Into those gorgeous big green eyes
Referring to the captivating beauty of the other person's eyes.
Ten years down the road we’ll look back and be thankful for the good times that we had
Anticipating gratitude for the good times in the future but struggling with the impending loss.
But that don’t make it easier for me to lose my only source of light in a world gone black
Reflecting on the difficulty of losing the only source of brightness in a dark world.
And I know we’re grown-ups and we’re supposed to be able to take it all in stride
Despite being adults, it's challenging to handle everything calmly and maturely (repeated).
But I’m a little bit uneasy about tonight
Reiterating uneasiness about the present situation (repeated).
But I’m a little bit uneasy about tonight
-Take it easy on me tonight
A plea for understanding and compassion tonight.
But I’m a little bit uneasy about tonight
Reiterating uneasiness about the present situation (repeated).
Take it easy on me
A final plea for understanding and compassion tonight.
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