Did It To Myself
Navigating Love's Abyss: John Weston's Melancholic Reflections
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Which ways up, and which ways down
Expressing confusion and disorientation, unsure of the current state.
I can't tell, since you left town
Feeling lost or disoriented since the departure of someone significant.
Oh I did it to myself I guess
Acknowledging personal responsibility for the current situation.
So cut me off and send your best
Asking to be disconnected or separated, possibly from emotional pain.
I left my home, nobody followed
Departing from a familiar place, with a sense of isolation.
My living room, was dead and hollow
Describing an empty and lifeless living space.
Now I'm forgotten like a dream
Feeling forgotten and overlooked, like a fading dream.
Oh they tell me, it's not as bad as it seems
Receiving reassurance that the situation isn't as dire as perceived.
Still I think I'll go and meet my maker
Contemplating meeting one's fate or destiny.
I'll stop on by the undertaker's
Mentioning a visit to the undertaker's, hinting at mortality.
I'll leave my room, and leave myself
Choosing to leave one's surroundings and identity behind.
I'll leave my old and rusty timepiece on the shelf
Symbolically leaving behind a relic of the past, the old timepiece.
I may lay down under an old tree
Considering the possibility of lying down in a peaceful setting.
Far from where you'd find me
Being far away from the usual places associated with the speaker.
With dirt over my shoulders
Visualizing dirt covering the shoulders, a metaphor for burdens.
Right where I used to hold her
Reflecting on a past connection, possibly a romantic one.
I may fade out into nothin
Contemplating fading away or disappearing into nothingness.
I may turn into a dove
Considering transformation, perhaps into a symbol of peace (dove).
But the one that I'm most wanting
Expressing a desire for someone specific who seems indifferent.
Doesn't care to feel my Love
Not feeling reciprocated love from the desired person.
Love was like a window
Describing love as something unattainable, like a window that can't be opened.
I could not break through
Emphasizing the difficulty of breaking through the barriers of time.
Time is like a ship out on the ocean
Comparing time to a vast and unpredictable ocean.
Maybe one day, will bring me back to you
Expressing hope that time may reunite the speaker with a lost love.
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