as i look back
Reflections of Resilience: Jordanisdead's Journey Through Betrayal and Redemption
Lyrics
These the days that we would reminisce
Reflecting on past days that hold nostalgic value
The days that we would lend a kiss
Recalling moments of intimacy and connection
Before we fought a system that reaps us of benefits
Addressing a struggle against a system that deprives them of benefits
The nemesis, you can't mend my fist or bend my wrists
Asserting resilience against adversaries, unwilling to be controlled
My wings will always spread, the fireflies ain't dead
Symbolizing resilience and persistence, despite challenges
You held me below water as I was learning to swim
Describing a past relationship where support turned into hindrance
Now I surface through Tsunami but that don't mean you my kin
Overcoming challenges but emphasizing a lack of familial connection
My accomplishments ain't yours, you don't get to claim my wins
Highlighting personal achievements and rejecting false claims
My skin will morph to dust, I just flow away in wind
Expressing a transient existence, detached and free like the wind
I portray myself as something akin to a monument
Portraying oneself as significant, like a monument with enduring presence
I learned that shit from you, in my youth, it betrayed my confidence
Acknowledging the influence of a mentor but also the betrayal of trust
Astonishment, isolation, I found myself alone
Exploring feelings of astonishment and isolation
The smoke consumes me, as I depart your path on my own, I pray
Choosing an independent path, leaving behind a toxic relationship
May the current be calm
Wishing for calmness in the journey ahead
May our resolve be as strong
Desiring strong determination in the face of challenges
As the fabric that prevents the fray that tears with everyday of labor
Comparing resolve to fabric preventing daily wear and tear
My testament, a sentiment to holy savior, I can't save you
Rejecting the role of a savior, acknowledging personal limitations
Imperfect being, I shall wear it on my skin
Embracing imperfections as part of one's identity
Every scar repents, reflects, and represents my sin
Each scar represents remorse and serves as a testament to mistakes
I attest, all that I detest, and all that I defend
Acknowledging personal dislikes and defenses
The scripture written with a pen
Referring to life experiences as a written script
The same one that my clipped wings will forever grip
Clipped wings symbolize limitations, holding onto past struggles
I never sip, I only trip to see what's fallen
Choosing to explore challenges rather than avoiding them
Spring awaits our future, smell of pollen
Anticipating a positive future represented by the arrival of spring
The sun in eyes, shit I guess I'm all in
Committing fully to life's challenges with an all-in attitude
Fuck it man, I let it ring when I see them all calling
Embracing life's calls, even when they bring difficulties
Cut myself off, before they cut me deep
Choosing to disconnect before being deeply hurt by others
The puddle's deep, need some subtle sleep
Desiring a peaceful rest before facing potential corruption
Before sleepless corruption, ruptures me
Preventing harm from external influences that may corrupt
Castle has fallen, a capsule of toxin
Acknowledging personal downfall and the toxicity in life
My portrait is rotten, I pray my soul is not forgotten
Expressing concern about the legacy and impact after death
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