Lyrics
I walked through hell but I kept smiling
I faced difficult challenges, but I maintained a positive attitude.
Now I stand on that edge
Currently, I find myself at a crucial point or decision in my life.
If I hit the ground with no one around would it make a sound or be dead silent
Contemplating the impact of my actions when no one is around, wondering if they would be noticed or go unnoticed.
These kind of thoughts go unsaid
Some thoughts remain unspoken and kept to myself.
Too many nights in my head
Many sleepless nights consumed by my thoughts.
Writing these songs got me stuck in my feelings
The process of creating these songs has deeply affected my emotions.
Performing them over and over is killing me
Repeatedly performing these songs is emotionally draining.
Damn, I loved you
Expressing affection for someone in the past.
Hate to admit it I wish that I didn't
Reluctantly acknowledging that I loved someone and wishing I didn't feel that way.
Whatever you wanted you knew that I'd get it
I was willing to fulfill your desires, and you were aware of it.
But now that we're finished I'm better alone
Since our relationship ended, I've found strength in being alone.
You say you want me and you still adore me
Your words suggest affection, but your actions tell a different story.
But your actions are telling me a different story
Experiencing fatigue from lies, tears, and lack of response until the early morning.
I was tired of lies rain from my eyes read no replies til 6 in the morning
Announcing my departure, making it visible.
Said I'm leaving, see me go
You're still secretly observing and checking up on me.
You're still creepin on the low
Despite emotional pain, I become a less friendly, distant presence.
Yes I died inside a little I'm a not so friendly ghost
My music is played during travels, but I don't receive special treatment or perform for free anymore.
Play my CD's on the road
I achieve success but then disappear suddenly, like the magician Houdini.
Get no freebies, no more shows
Visibility comes and goes, similar to Houdini's magic.
I blow up and disappear like Houdini
Reiterating the theme of disappearing success.
Now you see me now you don't
Repeating the idea of vanishing like Houdini, emphasizing the transient nature of fame.
Now you see me now you don't
-Now you see me now you don't
-Now you see me
-I blow up and disappear like Houdini
Further reflections on personal growth, shedding negative influences, and facing challenges.
Now you see me now you don't
-Practicing what I'm preaching
-My inner circle had leaches
-I lost some friends who I called brothers to jealous envy and weakness
Loss of close friendships due to envy and weakness in others.
I feel like I'm Harry Houdini
Comparing oneself to Houdini, breaking free from constraints and negativity.
Breaking these chains
-You can not keep me restrained
-Wasted my energy fucking with enemies
Regret for wasting time and energy on enemies.
Taking for granted the family I've gained
Realizing the value of the supportive family.
I found a remedy dealing with pain
Finding a solution to cope with emotional pain.
Me and Jrummatics are one in the same
Expressing unity with fellow artist Jrummatics in facing challenges.
All of us broken and trying to make something with whatever pieces remain
A collective effort to create something meaningful despite individual struggles.
I'ma still pray for the ones who would spit on my grave
Remaining compassionate even towards those who would wish harm.
That's just the way I was raised
Explaining behavior as a product of upbringing.
Y'all goin' remember the name
Leaving a lasting impression on people's memory.
Hate me or love me it's Jrumma but spelled with a J
Asserting identity, spelling the name uniquely.
Said I'm leaving, see me go
Reiterating the act of leaving.
You're still creepin on the low
Despite leaving, someone is still secretly watching.
Yes I died inside a little I'm a not so friendly ghost
Internal emotional struggle, becoming a distant presence.
Play my CD's on the road
Continued success but with no perks, disappearing like Houdini.
Get no freebies, no more shows
-I blow up and disappear like Houdini
-Now you see me now you don't
-Now you see me now you don't
Repeating the theme of visibility and disappearance.
Now you see me now you don't
-Now you see me
-I blow up and disappear like Houdini
-Now you see me now you don't
Emphasizing the transient nature of success and visibility.
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